Im sorry you have no idea how to comment on my blog. But it does allow me the freedom to make as much fun of you as I want and you cant say anything back until you learn how.
So pffffffffffffffffffffft. :)
Sincerely,
Stunna Shades from the Hood
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Lexophilia
The Love Of Words. Anyone who knows me knows I can talk about linguistics for hours (grammer too although I rarely use any in typed word), much to the dismay of everyone else on Earth.
Anyways, I received an email forward from my lovely parents with some witty and some not-so-witty sayings I like and thought I would post them here for you to enjoy or be bored by, whichever is your pleasure. If you dont understand one, keep it to yourself, or else I will laugh at you. :)
1. A bicycle can't stand alone; it is two tired.
2. A will is a dead giveaway.
3. Time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana.
4. A backward poet writes inverse.
5 In a democracy, it's your vote that counts; in feudalism, it's your Count that votes.
6. A chicken crossing the road: poultry in motion.
7. If you don't pay your exorcist, you can get repossessed.
8. With her marriage, she got a new name and a dress.
9. Show me a piano falling down a mine shaft and I'll show you A-flat miner.
10. When a clock is hungry, it goes back four seconds.
11. The guy who fell onto an upholstery machine was fully recovered.
12. A grenade fell onto a kitchen floor in France resulted in Linoleum Blownapart.
13. You are stuck with your debt if you can't budge it.
14. Local Area Network in Australia : The LAN down under.
15. He broke into song because he couldn't find the key.
16. A calendar's days are numbered.
17. A lot of money is tainted: 'Taint yours, and 'taint mine.
18. A boiled egg is hard to beat.
19. He had a photographic memory which was never developed.
20. A plateau is a high form of flattery.
21. The short fortune teller who escaped from prison: a small medium at large.
22. Those who get too big for their britches will be exposed in the end.
23. When you've seen one shopping center, you've seen a mall.
24. If you jump off a Paris bridge, you are in Seine.
25. When she saw her first strands of gray hair, she thought she'd dye.
26. Bakers trade bread recipes on a knead to know basis.
27. Santa's helpers are subordinate clauses.
28. Acupuncture: a jab well done.
29. Marathon runners with bad shoes suffer the agony of de feet.
And might I add... It is better to have loved a short woman than never to have loved a tall.
Anyways, I received an email forward from my lovely parents with some witty and some not-so-witty sayings I like and thought I would post them here for you to enjoy or be bored by, whichever is your pleasure. If you dont understand one, keep it to yourself, or else I will laugh at you. :)
1. A bicycle can't stand alone; it is two tired.
2. A will is a dead giveaway.
3. Time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana.
4. A backward poet writes inverse.
5 In a democracy, it's your vote that counts; in feudalism, it's your Count that votes.
6. A chicken crossing the road: poultry in motion.
7. If you don't pay your exorcist, you can get repossessed.
8. With her marriage, she got a new name and a dress.
9. Show me a piano falling down a mine shaft and I'll show you A-flat miner.
10. When a clock is hungry, it goes back four seconds.
11. The guy who fell onto an upholstery machine was fully recovered.
12. A grenade fell onto a kitchen floor in France resulted in Linoleum Blownapart.
13. You are stuck with your debt if you can't budge it.
14. Local Area Network in Australia : The LAN down under.
15. He broke into song because he couldn't find the key.
16. A calendar's days are numbered.
17. A lot of money is tainted: 'Taint yours, and 'taint mine.
18. A boiled egg is hard to beat.
19. He had a photographic memory which was never developed.
20. A plateau is a high form of flattery.
21. The short fortune teller who escaped from prison: a small medium at large.
22. Those who get too big for their britches will be exposed in the end.
23. When you've seen one shopping center, you've seen a mall.
24. If you jump off a Paris bridge, you are in Seine.
25. When she saw her first strands of gray hair, she thought she'd dye.
26. Bakers trade bread recipes on a knead to know basis.
27. Santa's helpers are subordinate clauses.
28. Acupuncture: a jab well done.
29. Marathon runners with bad shoes suffer the agony of de feet.
And might I add... It is better to have loved a short woman than never to have loved a tall.
The Dish
Usually I am a fan of dishes. yummy food comes on them. But last night I met a dish I dont like at all. here is a bad picture of the dish:
Nothing wrong with the dish, per se, except that it is in the middle of my new yard right where I was going to put kks trampoline, and right where instead of seeing green beauty i now see property damage and personal injury. i was NOT happy to hear about this. It wasnt there when I went to check out the place, but it was when I went to sign the lease Tuesday. My landlord agreed she did not like it being there, and told me it was odd that no one had called her about setting it up, since she is the one who owns the place. So Tuesday everything was fine. Then Wednesday night I get this email from her:
Hello Leslie,
I spoke to the Dish Network guy and the dish is there to stay as he was not able to find another spot that could receive 2 towers. He said he was there one day and then brought another guy to find a decent spot. They tried the roof , the wall etc. but the trees are in the way, actually just the one really tall one.
However, the cable on the grass is unacceptable and he knew that so he will come next week and burry it. I will get a small fence around the thing, hopefully next week too.
Hope things are well,
Wille
I was beyond pissed. So I wrote her back. I am not normally so quick to complain, however it was the middle of a very emotionally unsettling personal life week for me:
Hi Wille-
I am extremely unhappy about the dish. That is an understatement. At minimum, I will need something in writing releasing myself, kaytelin, and any other guest on the property from being liable for damage caused to the dish. My daughter is a child and I can just see her hitting it with a ball, etc., and us getting sued for $5000 or however much one of those things cost.
The great side yard was alot of the appeal of the outside of the home, a big deciding factor for us was the combination of the yard and the presence of that sweet kid next door, and now with this big junky clucky thing in the middle of the yard, well, i am just too upset actually figure out how to solve this problem. I can tell I will not sleep well tonight.
Are there any other options? The house is already wired for Comcast service. I do not see why the property I am renting should be changed by someone who lives elsewhere. What makes sense to me is this: If you cant get service in your own space, then I guess you arent getting satellite.
Wille, I hate to be complaining about this as I am typically an upbeat, positive problem-solver. But this has me very upset.
Are you sure every other option has been tried and disregarded? There has to be another way.
Leslie
I received the following response:
Good morning Leslie,
I am sorry that this is so upsetting to you but there really is no other way. Believe me I tried. The dish is right next to the tree, on the property line, so it is not quite all by itself. There still is plenty of side yard to play in and if you want something in writing that is fine. If you want to change your mind about the whole deal, that is fine too. It is not nice to live in a place you are not happy with.
Just let me know very shortly.
And please don't loose sleep over this...................
Take care,
Wille
I thought about what to do and talked to my boss and a couple other folks and friends about it and they all agreed that it sucked but I made the following decision:
Good Evening Wille-
I chewed on this all last night and today. In fact I thought about it so much last night I overslept this morning and was late for work!!! . If you say you have exhausted all other options, then I believe you. I am going to have to figure out how to accept it, but I can. I think overall the benefits of the place still outweigh the drawbacks... is there a way to surround it to the tree? My main concerns about this are A: property damage, and B: Personal injury. I dont want either one to happen! If it can be fenced in such a way to alleviate those worries, I will be more than satisfied. Thank you for listening to my troubles on this matter.
Leslie
We shall see what happens. It will be very unfortunate when it gets hit by a ball and knocked out of commission right after we move in. Or someone steals it. Or it gets hit by a universal void. Or.... whatever else you can think of, Im taking suggestions. ;)
Nothing wrong with the dish, per se, except that it is in the middle of my new yard right where I was going to put kks trampoline, and right where instead of seeing green beauty i now see property damage and personal injury. i was NOT happy to hear about this. It wasnt there when I went to check out the place, but it was when I went to sign the lease Tuesday. My landlord agreed she did not like it being there, and told me it was odd that no one had called her about setting it up, since she is the one who owns the place. So Tuesday everything was fine. Then Wednesday night I get this email from her:
Hello Leslie,
I spoke to the Dish Network guy and the dish is there to stay as he was not able to find another spot that could receive 2 towers. He said he was there one day and then brought another guy to find a decent spot. They tried the roof , the wall etc. but the trees are in the way, actually just the one really tall one.
However, the cable on the grass is unacceptable and he knew that so he will come next week and burry it. I will get a small fence around the thing, hopefully next week too.
Hope things are well,
Wille
I was beyond pissed. So I wrote her back. I am not normally so quick to complain, however it was the middle of a very emotionally unsettling personal life week for me:
Hi Wille-
I am extremely unhappy about the dish. That is an understatement. At minimum, I will need something in writing releasing myself, kaytelin, and any other guest on the property from being liable for damage caused to the dish. My daughter is a child and I can just see her hitting it with a ball, etc., and us getting sued for $5000 or however much one of those things cost.
The great side yard was alot of the appeal of the outside of the home, a big deciding factor for us was the combination of the yard and the presence of that sweet kid next door, and now with this big junky clucky thing in the middle of the yard, well, i am just too upset actually figure out how to solve this problem. I can tell I will not sleep well tonight.
Are there any other options? The house is already wired for Comcast service. I do not see why the property I am renting should be changed by someone who lives elsewhere. What makes sense to me is this: If you cant get service in your own space, then I guess you arent getting satellite.
Wille, I hate to be complaining about this as I am typically an upbeat, positive problem-solver. But this has me very upset.
Are you sure every other option has been tried and disregarded? There has to be another way.
Leslie
I received the following response:
Good morning Leslie,
I am sorry that this is so upsetting to you but there really is no other way. Believe me I tried. The dish is right next to the tree, on the property line, so it is not quite all by itself. There still is plenty of side yard to play in and if you want something in writing that is fine. If you want to change your mind about the whole deal, that is fine too. It is not nice to live in a place you are not happy with.
Just let me know very shortly.
And please don't loose sleep over this...................
Take care,
Wille
I thought about what to do and talked to my boss and a couple other folks and friends about it and they all agreed that it sucked but I made the following decision:
Good Evening Wille-
I chewed on this all last night and today. In fact I thought about it so much last night I overslept this morning and was late for work!!! . If you say you have exhausted all other options, then I believe you. I am going to have to figure out how to accept it, but I can. I think overall the benefits of the place still outweigh the drawbacks... is there a way to surround it to the tree? My main concerns about this are A: property damage, and B: Personal injury. I dont want either one to happen! If it can be fenced in such a way to alleviate those worries, I will be more than satisfied. Thank you for listening to my troubles on this matter.
Leslie
We shall see what happens. It will be very unfortunate when it gets hit by a ball and knocked out of commission right after we move in. Or someone steals it. Or it gets hit by a universal void. Or.... whatever else you can think of, Im taking suggestions. ;)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Today was rather strange
Yeah. Work was okay but I was a little blue so I asked my boss to throw it at me and ummmm yeah she took that and cubed it and multiplied by sevenoogoldodecaplex (yes that is a real number.) So I worked my booty off which always feels good- a little challenging running up and down stairs and ladders in flip flops. I think I will need to wear sneakers tomorrow.
At lunch I went and got us all Frosties from Wendys and that was a perfect lunch on such a hot day. So work was good overall. I left five minutes early and go pick up kk from baseball, which because it was a short week, I had completely forgotten about until 2pm so she didnt have her mitt or anything. Bad mom moment. Anyways so I picked her up from baseball and there had been an unfortunate incident brought to my attention from her teacher via email earlier that day that we had to speak about. Speaking was actually the problem. That girl will not shut up during class. So I had her write her 20 sentences and let her know that the possibility of getting a trampoline this summer would be nill if I received one more email like that. We will see if that works at all.
We went and cashed my check and got ice cream- then went over to katey and ernies house for a bit, then went to my blood pressure check appointment... and I passed! So what that means is I dont have to go back to that horrid wretched place for a year. Awesome.
We went and grabbed a bite to eat then headed to TJMaxx looking for a new pair of inexpensive, comfortable, but cute and sensible shoes for work. When it was time to go, the woman in line in front of me forgot her wallet in the car. Oh wait, no she didnt, here it is. But her credit card is not there, its in the car so she will be right back. But wait she thinks she has $5 cash in her purse. Oh no, she was wrong, so she needs to go back out to the car. Sigh. So she runs out to her car and her daughter waits there, but the cashier motions for me and kk to come forward, I say something jokingly about I brought my money into the store with me because I knew I would use it (haha) thinking nothing of the comment. So kk and I pay and leave the store. We get out to the car and are about to get in the car when I hear a bunch of honking. I turn around to see what is going on and see a truck back right into a car which was already in the middle of the row with a huge CRUNCH.
Yikes.
The old man driving the car who had already backed out and was honking got out of his camry and started yelling and swearing at the younger male driver of the truck that was at fault. Cutie-pie truck driver didnt have much to say. Two little scratches on the truck and a BIG dent in the back of the camry. I went over and gave my name and phone number to the old camry guy (not the truck hottie, darnit) in case his insurance needed a witness because i literally saw and heard everything, and because insurance companys suck ass. Anyways so i was on my way back to the car and from across that section of parking lot I hear "theres that girl, like she never forgot her credit car in the car" from ms. forgetful from ten minutes ago at tjmaxx. WTF? Is she really so mad she has to talk trash with both of our kids around? I said something jokingly, and not even to her, so her loudmouth little brat must have spun whatever I said. Anyways I jsut looked at her like she was nuts, asked her if she had something to say to me, and she jsut walked away. I hope Im not angry and bitter like that when im 45. Wait- who am I kidding? One more heartbreak and it will turn black and fall out LOL
OK so then we leave the parking lot and are driving away when who jaywalks right in front of us but cranky old bat and her snotty brat daughter. So since she walks right in front of me and even though it is jaywalking it would be illegal to hit her, she slows down and takes her sweet time. So since I have all my windows down I say loudly "take all the time you need to waddle across the street sister, I have all day" and she shoots me a dirty look and continues into target. Yes she drove from TJMaxx to Target even though the stores are only one store apart and it wasnt even raining. So that was the end of that. Homeward Bound.
Home. My refuge. Except it is torn all apart packing everything and sorting into keep, toss, or garage sale. What is wrong with me that I would go buy something more to bring into this mess? I dont blame men for not being able to understand women- I dont freaking understand myself most of the time either.
So tonight I am watching the Shear Genius finale on Bravo, packing, talking on the phone, and wishing I could go back a month in time and un-do something I did. Maybe then I would still be the girl who got to feel the joy of an unexpected "jsut crawled into bed- miss you" text.
Someday. Sad doesnt last that long, it just sucks to be in the middle of it.
At lunch I went and got us all Frosties from Wendys and that was a perfect lunch on such a hot day. So work was good overall. I left five minutes early and go pick up kk from baseball, which because it was a short week, I had completely forgotten about until 2pm so she didnt have her mitt or anything. Bad mom moment. Anyways so I picked her up from baseball and there had been an unfortunate incident brought to my attention from her teacher via email earlier that day that we had to speak about. Speaking was actually the problem. That girl will not shut up during class. So I had her write her 20 sentences and let her know that the possibility of getting a trampoline this summer would be nill if I received one more email like that. We will see if that works at all.
We went and cashed my check and got ice cream- then went over to katey and ernies house for a bit, then went to my blood pressure check appointment... and I passed! So what that means is I dont have to go back to that horrid wretched place for a year. Awesome.
We went and grabbed a bite to eat then headed to TJMaxx looking for a new pair of inexpensive, comfortable, but cute and sensible shoes for work. When it was time to go, the woman in line in front of me forgot her wallet in the car. Oh wait, no she didnt, here it is. But her credit card is not there, its in the car so she will be right back. But wait she thinks she has $5 cash in her purse. Oh no, she was wrong, so she needs to go back out to the car. Sigh. So she runs out to her car and her daughter waits there, but the cashier motions for me and kk to come forward, I say something jokingly about I brought my money into the store with me because I knew I would use it (haha) thinking nothing of the comment. So kk and I pay and leave the store. We get out to the car and are about to get in the car when I hear a bunch of honking. I turn around to see what is going on and see a truck back right into a car which was already in the middle of the row with a huge CRUNCH.
Yikes.
The old man driving the car who had already backed out and was honking got out of his camry and started yelling and swearing at the younger male driver of the truck that was at fault. Cutie-pie truck driver didnt have much to say. Two little scratches on the truck and a BIG dent in the back of the camry. I went over and gave my name and phone number to the old camry guy (not the truck hottie, darnit) in case his insurance needed a witness because i literally saw and heard everything, and because insurance companys suck ass. Anyways so i was on my way back to the car and from across that section of parking lot I hear "theres that girl, like she never forgot her credit car in the car" from ms. forgetful from ten minutes ago at tjmaxx. WTF? Is she really so mad she has to talk trash with both of our kids around? I said something jokingly, and not even to her, so her loudmouth little brat must have spun whatever I said. Anyways I jsut looked at her like she was nuts, asked her if she had something to say to me, and she jsut walked away. I hope Im not angry and bitter like that when im 45. Wait- who am I kidding? One more heartbreak and it will turn black and fall out LOL
OK so then we leave the parking lot and are driving away when who jaywalks right in front of us but cranky old bat and her snotty brat daughter. So since she walks right in front of me and even though it is jaywalking it would be illegal to hit her, she slows down and takes her sweet time. So since I have all my windows down I say loudly "take all the time you need to waddle across the street sister, I have all day" and she shoots me a dirty look and continues into target. Yes she drove from TJMaxx to Target even though the stores are only one store apart and it wasnt even raining. So that was the end of that. Homeward Bound.
Home. My refuge. Except it is torn all apart packing everything and sorting into keep, toss, or garage sale. What is wrong with me that I would go buy something more to bring into this mess? I dont blame men for not being able to understand women- I dont freaking understand myself most of the time either.
So tonight I am watching the Shear Genius finale on Bravo, packing, talking on the phone, and wishing I could go back a month in time and un-do something I did. Maybe then I would still be the girl who got to feel the joy of an unexpected "jsut crawled into bed- miss you" text.
Someday. Sad doesnt last that long, it just sucks to be in the middle of it.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
That kiss
you know, the one that makes you feel like the floor jsut dropped out from under you and if you were never kissed half as much as passionately as that again you would be jsut fine.
Ive had one of those.
I didnt think they were real until it happened to me. I thought they were the invention of some cheesy schmeesy studio dramatist trying to sell their movie by sexing it up a bit. Trying to make people believe that passion like that really exists.
Well it does, and I had it once. Just one kiss. One kiss I will never forget. Ive had others that made my tummy tingle, or other things happen, kisses of excitement or comfort, or something new and tempting, but none that came close to That Kiss.
A little bit of back story leading up to the liplock of the century: There was a guy at work I had a crush on for about 6 months- ever since I had started working at my last job. We had talked every now and then, he was super-nice, awkward around me, younger, chubby and geeky, with a great sincere smile. Exactly how I like them. I had heard he had a girlfriend, but I never thought it was serious until a couple months before their wedding when I heard him talking about some wedding plans. My heart dropped, but I wasnt all that upset since I knew now I could jsut flirt and not have it go anywhere- you know, that kind of safety flirting you can do with people who are in relationships- nothing disrespectful or over the line, jsut holding glances a little longer than necessary, smiling at them for no reason, stuff like that. Harmless innocent fun.
Skip forward through a bachelor party gone wild, emails filled with strife and longing, a wife who thinks she knows everything but will never know the real story, and you get to me and the guy about six weeks after his wedding. We had been going thru the 'we have to stop this thing' and the 'i love my wife but... i dont know what to do' thing for the past month. It seemed like every time I stopped it, he was distraught and upset and every time he stopped it, we tried to be jsut friends but it wouldnt work. Have you ever been in one of those situations, where there is no way to be jsut friends with someone no matter what because you will always have different stronger feelings than friendship for that person? Yeah, thats where we were. A friendly email would lead to a friendly lunch, then it would always escalate into sneaking around. Anyways, I had arranged for him to come over and help me plant some things at my parents house and when he got there, I told him that we had to stop this once and for all, and he looked sad, but said okay, i understand, so ill talk to you tomorrow. And I said no, I dont think so. Then he realized what I was saying and the look on his face made my own heart sink. But I kept my composure and stayed firm.
The next day at work, he looked awful and came up to me and asked if we could talk, and said that when i had had questions he had answered them for me and could I please do the same for him. So I said yes. He looked so upset and told me he hadnt slept at all that night and could we go somewhere to talk for lunch. I said yeah how about our spot? (We had this secret meeting spot out back by the old greenhouse under the two apple trees... not as Secret Garden as it sounds, trust me) and he said no, like I will drive- lets go somewhere. Whoa- this was big- we had never ventured out into public together. OK lets not forget that his wife knew that something was up with him and me, she actually knew alot more but I am not going into that in this blog (TMI) so I was actually a little scared of the psychotic (and huge) crazy woman. She would chop me up and skewer me and have me for a pre-dinner snack if she caught me in her husbands truck.
Anyways, this seemed too important to him so at lunch he emailed me and we got into his truck and drove up the street. Before we even got out of the parking lot he was asking me if he was too late to have a chance with me. I told him the only thing that made sense- that when he got married he gave up his right to a chance with me. He was so upset. Kept saying how he feels like he is stuck in the decision that he made, etc. We parked and we were holding hands and i was trying not to cry and i could see his heart pounding through his shirt. It was crazy intense. We talked about a lot of things, hugged and held each other, then pretty soon we were outside holding each other because i think we both knew it would be the last time. I asked for one last kiss and he gave it to me, and it was sweet and filled with feeling and longing, not lusting. We let go of each other and I got back in the car and felt my eyes brimming with tears but I was determined not to cry... again. So I took a deep breath and put on my seatbelt. He got in the car and I looked away, then all of a sudden he grabbed my face and swung it towards his and kissed me.
No, he KISSED me.
Like in the movies. Thats the only way I can describe it to his day. I still feel butterflies when I close my eyes and think about it. When he let go of me we both jsut sat there for a minute- Im sure my jaw was dropped and I probably looked like a damn fool. But I didnt care. Knowing that someone was able to convey the most innocent, undeniable feeling through a kiss still blows my mind. Something that can never be said in words or written in a card, only felt. I will probably remember this kiss when I am 90, even though it was the last kiss.
We drove back to work in jsut about silence, neither one of us caring we were half an hour late, and that was that. We talked a few times after that but he turned into the faithful husband that he signed up to be when he got married. I moved on, so I thought, but jsut ended up feeling nothing for a really long time- From last June to this February in fact. Met some people, had some fun, dated, whatever- but no real feelings for a long time.
I guess things turned out how they were supposed to in this situation, but he will always have a small piece of my heart whether he wants it or not.
Ive had one of those.
I didnt think they were real until it happened to me. I thought they were the invention of some cheesy schmeesy studio dramatist trying to sell their movie by sexing it up a bit. Trying to make people believe that passion like that really exists.
Well it does, and I had it once. Just one kiss. One kiss I will never forget. Ive had others that made my tummy tingle, or other things happen, kisses of excitement or comfort, or something new and tempting, but none that came close to That Kiss.
A little bit of back story leading up to the liplock of the century: There was a guy at work I had a crush on for about 6 months- ever since I had started working at my last job. We had talked every now and then, he was super-nice, awkward around me, younger, chubby and geeky, with a great sincere smile. Exactly how I like them. I had heard he had a girlfriend, but I never thought it was serious until a couple months before their wedding when I heard him talking about some wedding plans. My heart dropped, but I wasnt all that upset since I knew now I could jsut flirt and not have it go anywhere- you know, that kind of safety flirting you can do with people who are in relationships- nothing disrespectful or over the line, jsut holding glances a little longer than necessary, smiling at them for no reason, stuff like that. Harmless innocent fun.
Skip forward through a bachelor party gone wild, emails filled with strife and longing, a wife who thinks she knows everything but will never know the real story, and you get to me and the guy about six weeks after his wedding. We had been going thru the 'we have to stop this thing' and the 'i love my wife but... i dont know what to do' thing for the past month. It seemed like every time I stopped it, he was distraught and upset and every time he stopped it, we tried to be jsut friends but it wouldnt work. Have you ever been in one of those situations, where there is no way to be jsut friends with someone no matter what because you will always have different stronger feelings than friendship for that person? Yeah, thats where we were. A friendly email would lead to a friendly lunch, then it would always escalate into sneaking around. Anyways, I had arranged for him to come over and help me plant some things at my parents house and when he got there, I told him that we had to stop this once and for all, and he looked sad, but said okay, i understand, so ill talk to you tomorrow. And I said no, I dont think so. Then he realized what I was saying and the look on his face made my own heart sink. But I kept my composure and stayed firm.
The next day at work, he looked awful and came up to me and asked if we could talk, and said that when i had had questions he had answered them for me and could I please do the same for him. So I said yes. He looked so upset and told me he hadnt slept at all that night and could we go somewhere to talk for lunch. I said yeah how about our spot? (We had this secret meeting spot out back by the old greenhouse under the two apple trees... not as Secret Garden as it sounds, trust me) and he said no, like I will drive- lets go somewhere. Whoa- this was big- we had never ventured out into public together. OK lets not forget that his wife knew that something was up with him and me, she actually knew alot more but I am not going into that in this blog (TMI) so I was actually a little scared of the psychotic (and huge) crazy woman. She would chop me up and skewer me and have me for a pre-dinner snack if she caught me in her husbands truck.
Anyways, this seemed too important to him so at lunch he emailed me and we got into his truck and drove up the street. Before we even got out of the parking lot he was asking me if he was too late to have a chance with me. I told him the only thing that made sense- that when he got married he gave up his right to a chance with me. He was so upset. Kept saying how he feels like he is stuck in the decision that he made, etc. We parked and we were holding hands and i was trying not to cry and i could see his heart pounding through his shirt. It was crazy intense. We talked about a lot of things, hugged and held each other, then pretty soon we were outside holding each other because i think we both knew it would be the last time. I asked for one last kiss and he gave it to me, and it was sweet and filled with feeling and longing, not lusting. We let go of each other and I got back in the car and felt my eyes brimming with tears but I was determined not to cry... again. So I took a deep breath and put on my seatbelt. He got in the car and I looked away, then all of a sudden he grabbed my face and swung it towards his and kissed me.
No, he KISSED me.
Like in the movies. Thats the only way I can describe it to his day. I still feel butterflies when I close my eyes and think about it. When he let go of me we both jsut sat there for a minute- Im sure my jaw was dropped and I probably looked like a damn fool. But I didnt care. Knowing that someone was able to convey the most innocent, undeniable feeling through a kiss still blows my mind. Something that can never be said in words or written in a card, only felt. I will probably remember this kiss when I am 90, even though it was the last kiss.
We drove back to work in jsut about silence, neither one of us caring we were half an hour late, and that was that. We talked a few times after that but he turned into the faithful husband that he signed up to be when he got married. I moved on, so I thought, but jsut ended up feeling nothing for a really long time- From last June to this February in fact. Met some people, had some fun, dated, whatever- but no real feelings for a long time.
I guess things turned out how they were supposed to in this situation, but he will always have a small piece of my heart whether he wants it or not.
Monday, May 28, 2007
This week: A Preview
Tomorrow I get the keys to my new place. I am excited! Dont worry, Im not asking anybody to help me move except Terrence for the heavy stuff. So dont avoid me trying to avoid being asked for help LOL Im a tough girl I can do it on my own. My mom came over today and we put a load of boxes into her car since she will be going over there tomorrow to help take measurements and visualize placement of items inside. She is a big fan of floorplans and home design magazines and sites, so I know she will have a bunch of feedback for me, and since we are so polarly different she will be able to visualize things I would never think of. I still have to load up my own car with a load but i have been distracted this past hour by sunburn and making fun of the miss universe or soemthing pageant.
When I was younger I was so obsessed with watching the beautiful women on the pageants. Once when I was about 6 and living with my grandma, we watched a pageant until it was time for me to go to bed. I wanted to kleep watching it but she was pretty strict, so I went to bed. But I was so upset I cried until I puked, so I ended up being able to watch the rest of the pageant while she changed my bed. I dont normally go to such extreme measures to get my way LOL although I do remember being so upset a couple other times in my life that I really did cry until I puked. thankfully the last time was a couple eyars ago, and the time before that was like 5 years before that. I figure I am not due for another one of those spells for about three more years :)
Ew. Sorry for talking about puking. Thats not very ladylike. Back to the week preview.
Wednesday I have an appointment to get my blood pressure checked and get more birth control pills. This is always an event for me. The same thing happens every time I go in. First they get mad at me for bringing Kaytelin. Well hey I didnt use the pills right the first time so now I have to bring her, okay? Then we wait. And wait. And wait. Which is not great for someone with the patience of a hummingbird (I messed that saying up somehow, oh well) Anyhoo, then we go back into the waiting room and they take my blood pressure, make some smart remark that it is high and did i know it was high, and i tell them of cvourse its high, im a young struggling single mom trying to fit 30 hours into a day then i get here and get yelled at for bringing my kid then i wait 5 hours (not really) so yeah i have high blood pressure. So then they tell me that i will need to come back int he next week or two and get my bp checked again and i say good another thing to fit into my schedule. Then i get one months worth of pills and the luck and fortune of another trip back to Hell: The Pill Dispensary. All this for sex like twice a month? Currently debating the pros and cons.
What else is on the schedule for me this week? Let me check my 30boxes and see...
Damn they are switching servers I cant check right now. I know there is more but I cant quite remember. The weekend looks completely open so I will try to cram as much moving into it as I can handle but there really is no rush since I dont have to be out of ths place till June 30th. i would like to see someone but that isnt looking to possible. oops danm i used the wrong to. and now i am writing about it instead of jsut fixing it. Tsk tsk tsk.
hey i found my graduation cap and gown and honor cords so If anyone wants to play dress-up let me know :)
Happy week to all.
When I was younger I was so obsessed with watching the beautiful women on the pageants. Once when I was about 6 and living with my grandma, we watched a pageant until it was time for me to go to bed. I wanted to kleep watching it but she was pretty strict, so I went to bed. But I was so upset I cried until I puked, so I ended up being able to watch the rest of the pageant while she changed my bed. I dont normally go to such extreme measures to get my way LOL although I do remember being so upset a couple other times in my life that I really did cry until I puked. thankfully the last time was a couple eyars ago, and the time before that was like 5 years before that. I figure I am not due for another one of those spells for about three more years :)
Ew. Sorry for talking about puking. Thats not very ladylike. Back to the week preview.
Wednesday I have an appointment to get my blood pressure checked and get more birth control pills. This is always an event for me. The same thing happens every time I go in. First they get mad at me for bringing Kaytelin. Well hey I didnt use the pills right the first time so now I have to bring her, okay? Then we wait. And wait. And wait. Which is not great for someone with the patience of a hummingbird (I messed that saying up somehow, oh well) Anyhoo, then we go back into the waiting room and they take my blood pressure, make some smart remark that it is high and did i know it was high, and i tell them of cvourse its high, im a young struggling single mom trying to fit 30 hours into a day then i get here and get yelled at for bringing my kid then i wait 5 hours (not really) so yeah i have high blood pressure. So then they tell me that i will need to come back int he next week or two and get my bp checked again and i say good another thing to fit into my schedule. Then i get one months worth of pills and the luck and fortune of another trip back to Hell: The Pill Dispensary. All this for sex like twice a month? Currently debating the pros and cons.
What else is on the schedule for me this week? Let me check my 30boxes and see...
Damn they are switching servers I cant check right now. I know there is more but I cant quite remember. The weekend looks completely open so I will try to cram as much moving into it as I can handle but there really is no rush since I dont have to be out of ths place till June 30th. i would like to see someone but that isnt looking to possible. oops danm i used the wrong to. and now i am writing about it instead of jsut fixing it. Tsk tsk tsk.
hey i found my graduation cap and gown and honor cords so If anyone wants to play dress-up let me know :)
Happy week to all.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Going back to school
is definitely in my future. I have enough time right now that I think I can start again in September and get my degree taken care of by the end of the year. I dont think there are any 4-yr school extension campuses in Bremerton or Port Orchard. Hold on, Im going to go Google that right now.
Nope, I dont see anything. Hmmm. Maybe online courses. I have taken quite a few online courses and always done okay so maybe I will pursue this option. Although I love school and love going to class. It will happen, the timing jsut has to be right.
In other news, plans for tonight didnt come through as I hoped so instead I am babysitting so that others may enjoy the life I dont get to have tonight LOL
Kk has been asking for ari and liv to come over, and I keep saying no because I am too tired to deal with one child, let alone three, but today one of my bff's of 11 years called and said 'Hey ari and liv have been asking to come over and see kk, is it okay?" so i said yes and figured that all the girls would get it out of their systems. I do have great friends. I never forget how great they are, I just forget that I should call them. I am going to miss them when I move- Its not like I am moving that far, but they have their own lives and I dont expect them to drop everything and come see me.
Gah. I miss having a boyfriend to dote on. I feel like I am not fulfilling my responsibility as a sexy female of the world to making some mans life better jsut by having me in it. Oh well, some lucky man's time will come. I refuse to quit believing he is out there somewhere. I never thought of myself as an ideal romantic but the more I see how I behave, the more I see that there isnt anything wrong with me. I jsut need to be true to myself and not quit caring- I jsut need to be with someone who appreciates the depth to which I care, and cares back the same amount for me, because I am an incredibly awesome chick.
Yeah. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it. Sorry felt like saying something smartiepants-ish.
Nope, I dont see anything. Hmmm. Maybe online courses. I have taken quite a few online courses and always done okay so maybe I will pursue this option. Although I love school and love going to class. It will happen, the timing jsut has to be right.
In other news, plans for tonight didnt come through as I hoped so instead I am babysitting so that others may enjoy the life I dont get to have tonight LOL
Kk has been asking for ari and liv to come over, and I keep saying no because I am too tired to deal with one child, let alone three, but today one of my bff's of 11 years called and said 'Hey ari and liv have been asking to come over and see kk, is it okay?" so i said yes and figured that all the girls would get it out of their systems. I do have great friends. I never forget how great they are, I just forget that I should call them. I am going to miss them when I move- Its not like I am moving that far, but they have their own lives and I dont expect them to drop everything and come see me.
Gah. I miss having a boyfriend to dote on. I feel like I am not fulfilling my responsibility as a sexy female of the world to making some mans life better jsut by having me in it. Oh well, some lucky man's time will come. I refuse to quit believing he is out there somewhere. I never thought of myself as an ideal romantic but the more I see how I behave, the more I see that there isnt anything wrong with me. I jsut need to be true to myself and not quit caring- I jsut need to be with someone who appreciates the depth to which I care, and cares back the same amount for me, because I am an incredibly awesome chick.
Yeah. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it. Sorry felt like saying something smartiepants-ish.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Read this and give me feedback
Since I am a big do-er of the don'ts and don't-er of the do's, i am trying to do anything better that i can, and im having a hard time with leaving well enough alone. I fould this article that seemed to make sense. Can all ye happy relationship people read it and tell me if this article is primarily fact or fiction?
Why Don't Men Talk Like Women Do?
By David Zinczenko
Here's a great irony: Men, in general, are happy in their relationships. And yet women -- the very people responsible for making guys so happy -- spend a great deal of time fretting over whether their men want to stay in the relationship or are waiting to catch the next bus out of it. Indeed, women spend so much time fretting that they often ask men to talk more about ... gasp! ... their feelings. And the one thing that can make a contented guy discontented is being asked to talk about his feelings. It's like cooking up a great souffle, and then opening the oven to check on it -- and presto, the souffle goes flat.
It's not that you should never ask a man about his feelings. But it's all about technique: you need to coax him to that place where he can share; pushing him just makes him stubborn.
The problem for a lot of guys is that talking feelings with a woman is like talking French with a native Parisian. No matter how hard we study, we'll never master the language with quite the same fluency. So you need to make things a little simpler for us.
From our end, we'd prefer that you don't directly ask about the "f-word" -- feelings.
Say the word feelings to a man and it's like clipping your toenails during a striptease -- total turn-off. The reason? We have feelings, but we don't have the access to them that you do. So every conversation that's pointedly about our feelings seems to us like the last 15 minutes of "Law & Order," where we're the perp and you're the clever detective, poking a finger in our face and hinting that you know just a little more than we do. And you do know a little more than we do. You know how you feel. And we don't know how we feel. So if you want us to talk, then help us speak your language -- by speaking a little of ours.
The point: If you want us to answer questions about what we're feeling, then stop asking about how we're feeling. Instead, watch how we behave, and where our interests lie. And be open about your feelings. The more you show comfort in expressing yourself, the more he'll do the same.
How do I know where the relationship is going?
I feel like I've hit a snag in a relationship with my boyfriend. We've been seeing each other for a few months. Everything was really great in the beginning. Now, it seems like we've fallen into that typical relationship routine. We see each other during the week, rent a movie on Fridays, and usually have sex twice a week (once after the movie). He's nice to me and treats me well, but I'd like to get things back to where they were. He tells me everything's fine, assures me he cares about me, and tells me not to worry about it. But I still do because what he says is one thing but what happens week to week is another. Any idea what he's thinking?
Yeah. He's thinking exactly what he's saying, which is that everything's fine.
"Women think that not talking about the relationship means there are problems, but it's the opposite for men. If we're not talking about it, it means we're happy," says Conner, 32. So the real question is not "What's he thinking?" It's "What are you thinking?" If you're content with the relationship you've got, then relax and enjoy it. And if you want more, say so. "If a man loves a woman, he'll prove it with daily action not just words," says Jimmy, 27. Either he'll step up to the plate, or what he's giving now is all he's got -- and maybe you need to move on.Why don't guys answer emotional questions?
Here's the problem: You wanted him to tune into your concerns, but the signal you were sending was fuzzier than a pirate radio station. It's the old "feelings" conundrum again. If you want to know if he thinks it's wrong for one partner to give up on a marriage, then ask him about that. But don't ask him about his feelings and expect him to surmise that your telling him a story about the neighbors is some Aesop's fable for your relationship. "We're simple. Please, no hints or assumptions," says D.J., 26. "Say what you mean, mean what you say. Don't make us guess as if we know what you are trying to say or feel."
D.J.'s a bit of a wishful thinker. Just as men like direct, problem A/solution B equations, women seem to take a more poetic and metaphorical approach to communication. That's why communication between the sexes is so much work. To men, dealing with hypotheticals is fun when we're talking about pennant races and the stock market, not when you're asking us to project how we'd feel about anything really serious, like a breakup or infidelity or pizza toppings. In that case, direct questions will get you the answers you want: let's stay together, I'll be faithful forever, and no anchovies, please.Why can't a guy just plan out our future?
The fact is that men hate admitting that they don't have a plan, and with complex issues like this, it's hard for a guy to decide, unilaterally, the rest of both your lives. He's going to flip and flop like a beached sea bass until he knows for certain. And then, one day, he's just going to announce his decision.I know, it's hard living with us. Just don't try living without us.Masculinity mastered: what you now know about men
"Feelings" is our f-word. Bleep it out of your conversational repertoire. Try pointed questions like "What do you think about...."
We feel everything's okay when we're not talking about feelings. When we're talking about feelings, we feel everything's on the rocks.
Backed into a corner, we won't let you into our heads. Give us some space and we'll let you in.
Say this, not that!
Say this: "What do you think about that?"
Not: "How do you feel about that?"
Because: He knows how to answer the first question, but the second one makes him nervous.
Say this: "I wish I could say this in a way that makes more sense to you."
Not: "You don't understand me."
Because: Miscommunication is a two-way street.
Say this: "Let's go for a drive."
Not: "Let's sit down and talk."
Because: Men are less tense when they're doing something physical.
Say anything: Once
Not: Ten times
Because: To a guy, repetition makes a statement meaningless.What it means when....
He says, "I love you" for the first time (not during sex).
He does. And he thought it long before he ever said it.
He says, "Fine," in response to a question about how his day was.
Fine. If something significant happened, he'll tell you -- in a few hours.
He says, "Five," when you ask him how many women he's slept with.
Twelve.Wondering woman
Why is it so hard for guys to write a personal message in a birthday card? Every year all I get is "Love, Jim."Â Five minutes on the way back from the drugstore doesn't give a whole lot of time to come up with something clever. Plus, he'd rather let a nice dinner and a show do the talking for him.Male mysteries
27: Percentage of men who say they primarily fight with their wives or girlfriends about the fact that they don't share or talk about their feelings.
65: Percentage of men who don't want their partners to ask more questions about them.
Memorial Day Weekend starts
for me in two hours and thirteen minutes- when i get off of work here at my old job and dont have to be back at work until Tuesday morning. I did have plans Monday to go to seattle for the day with my cousin to see grandpa but she ended up having to work so now I have absolutely no plans for the next two days and nights.
Anyone wanna do something? Let me know :)
Anyone wanna do something? Let me know :)
my bedroom is special
and it serves many purposes, regardless of where i live. The lighting in my room is always jsut right, no matter the time of day. The temp is very nice when the fan is on, and sometimes when it gets a little steamy in there jsut turn the fan up a notch and the breeze is so pleasant to me, it reminds me of when I lived on the beach. Well- in a beachfront home lol. My room generally smells good, like girl and candles and cotton. the blankets and mattress are squishy and melty and comfy and the sheets are smooth and cool and soft. So there are the senses of sight, smell, touch, taste doesnt really apply (i am extremely against crumbs in bed haha)The problem occurs when I try to decorate, or mainly try to pick a sheet/blanket/comforter combo of some sort. I hate what i have now. But it is very very comfy IMO and I generally have my eyes shut when I am in there anyways. But I would love to be able to walk into my room and be like WOW it is pretty in here.Wish there was some kind of quiz i could take on like macys.com or some site that would let me answer a bunch of questions and they would suggest a bunch of bedroom sets that they think i would like. Sometimes those quizzes are way off, but sometimes they know me better than I know myself :)When I go Tuesday to officially take posession of my new place, I am taking a tape measure so i can graph on graph paper the exact layout of the place and decide where i want to put my stuff. I am also getting a nice stereo from Terrence (QUITE the back story there) so I will have to figure that into the equation as well. I have some things in mind for each room but really need the measurements and to lay everything out to see how it will fit. I wonder if other people do that too.Anyways I am working today all day which is nice but I am also pretty bored so if you want to talk hit me up.later y'all
Thursday, May 24, 2007
how was your day at work honey?
It was fine, babe, thanks for asking!
Then why are you so hungry and bitchy?
Ohhhhhh yeah, because it wasnt fine.
Really, why not? What happened?
So sweet of you to ask. Well, the first thing was that i knew we were having sales people come in and meet with us and engineering about our new projects and the future sourcing needs that would come out of manufacturing this part in US instead of China. So to look more professional, I ditched the accepted jeans and sneakers and put on a nice business suit complete with uncomfortable shoes. Hey, why not, I was going to be chillaxin in the boardroom for a good part of the day and at a nice restaurant schmoozing for another great part of it.
Well that makes sense hun. Whats the problem?
Problem was that the main component of the item we were to have production build today didnt get on the UPS plane from Ontario like it was supposed to.
What a naughty little package.
I know, right? So anyways, since we dont have that new MRP system up and running yet because the office manager is 'completely overwhelmed' (like everyone else in the world isnt) and we cant do anything until we get the GL codes into the new system, all I had to go on for scheduling the line was what we had in stock, which without those pieces from Ontario couldn't be done.
Ohhhhhhhhhhh, I see.
Yeah. (sighs) So. We get to figure out by quick cycle counting what builds we have all the components for so that production doesnt literally come to a screeching halt. I wonder if it would really screech. Doubt it. Anyways, strangely enough, the whole reason those items were ont he production schedule for today was because we ahd sourcing issues with the 06-15's, which are a main component of almost all of our builds that didnt rely on the parts that missed the Ontario plane.
***ATTENTION: THIS BLOG HAS BEEN INTERRUPTED TO GO KILL THAT SPIDER***
Ok where was I? Oh yes- much easier to remember what I was saying when I have my whole two-sided conversation typed in front of me.
Anyways, I found some stuff for them to do and my boss crawled up UPS's ass and had an anger baby.
Good job showing your skills, babe. So the rest of the day was good?
No, not really. Since we had figured upon being schmoozed by sales people, I didnt bring anything for lunch, and when they asked us to go I had to decline and catch up with everything that had to be waited on because of the fire. So that explains my hungriness. And my appreciation for garlic butter green beans as soon as i got home.
So what explains your bitchiness?
Wow, what doesnt? just kidding. I didnt get a coffee this morning so I have been battling an awful caffeine headache all day. And Im feeling super-fat because Im walking funny in these shoes that I wore to look all impressive not only do they do that, they also hurt like someone kicking me in the ribs all day with stillettos. So yeah, my feet hurt, all I really need is to have them rubbed though and wear sneakers tomorrow and they will be fine. Oh yeah and I was a total bitch to someone this morning because that whole 'need to be appreciated' trait that I have came sneaking back up on me and I couldnt stifle it.
OK. Well, you dont look fat, you look beautiful. Unfortunately, since I am not real, I cant rub your feet, but I hope talking to me helped.
It totally did, Mr Imaginary Honey. Now enough about me. How was your day?
I didn't have a day, gorgeous. Remember? You only made me up like an hour ago.
Oh yeah. Well in that case, I am going to quit talking to you, since you dont really exist. But thanks again for everything. It all meant alot to me.
You're welcome! And remember- you can reimagine me any time. Any woman as smart, sassy, and sexy as you should always have exactly what she wants.
Yeah- good place to end this blog.
Then why are you so hungry and bitchy?
Ohhhhhh yeah, because it wasnt fine.
Really, why not? What happened?
So sweet of you to ask. Well, the first thing was that i knew we were having sales people come in and meet with us and engineering about our new projects and the future sourcing needs that would come out of manufacturing this part in US instead of China. So to look more professional, I ditched the accepted jeans and sneakers and put on a nice business suit complete with uncomfortable shoes. Hey, why not, I was going to be chillaxin in the boardroom for a good part of the day and at a nice restaurant schmoozing for another great part of it.
Well that makes sense hun. Whats the problem?
Problem was that the main component of the item we were to have production build today didnt get on the UPS plane from Ontario like it was supposed to.
What a naughty little package.
I know, right? So anyways, since we dont have that new MRP system up and running yet because the office manager is 'completely overwhelmed' (like everyone else in the world isnt) and we cant do anything until we get the GL codes into the new system, all I had to go on for scheduling the line was what we had in stock, which without those pieces from Ontario couldn't be done.
Ohhhhhhhhhhh, I see.
Yeah. (sighs) So. We get to figure out by quick cycle counting what builds we have all the components for so that production doesnt literally come to a screeching halt. I wonder if it would really screech. Doubt it. Anyways, strangely enough, the whole reason those items were ont he production schedule for today was because we ahd sourcing issues with the 06-15's, which are a main component of almost all of our builds that didnt rely on the parts that missed the Ontario plane.
***ATTENTION: THIS BLOG HAS BEEN INTERRUPTED TO GO KILL THAT SPIDER***
Ok where was I? Oh yes- much easier to remember what I was saying when I have my whole two-sided conversation typed in front of me.
Anyways, I found some stuff for them to do and my boss crawled up UPS's ass and had an anger baby.
Good job showing your skills, babe. So the rest of the day was good?
No, not really. Since we had figured upon being schmoozed by sales people, I didnt bring anything for lunch, and when they asked us to go I had to decline and catch up with everything that had to be waited on because of the fire. So that explains my hungriness. And my appreciation for garlic butter green beans as soon as i got home.
So what explains your bitchiness?
Wow, what doesnt? just kidding. I didnt get a coffee this morning so I have been battling an awful caffeine headache all day. And Im feeling super-fat because Im walking funny in these shoes that I wore to look all impressive not only do they do that, they also hurt like someone kicking me in the ribs all day with stillettos. So yeah, my feet hurt, all I really need is to have them rubbed though and wear sneakers tomorrow and they will be fine. Oh yeah and I was a total bitch to someone this morning because that whole 'need to be appreciated' trait that I have came sneaking back up on me and I couldnt stifle it.
OK. Well, you dont look fat, you look beautiful. Unfortunately, since I am not real, I cant rub your feet, but I hope talking to me helped.
It totally did, Mr Imaginary Honey. Now enough about me. How was your day?
I didn't have a day, gorgeous. Remember? You only made me up like an hour ago.
Oh yeah. Well in that case, I am going to quit talking to you, since you dont really exist. But thanks again for everything. It all meant alot to me.
You're welcome! And remember- you can reimagine me any time. Any woman as smart, sassy, and sexy as you should always have exactly what she wants.
Yeah- good place to end this blog.
thought stuck in my mind
If someone making someone feel good is such a chore, you should tell them they are not worth it and free them to find someone who likes to make them happy. Keeping someone around when you feel they are not truly worth the trouble is unfair to both parties.
comprende?
comprende?
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
show her you care
***WARNING: THIS BLOG IS STEREOTYPICAL AND DOES NOT APPLY TO EVERY PERSON ON EARTH*** (ridiculous that i have to say that)
Ever wish your girl or some girl in your life would just be like "Hey, you know something that would make me really happy? ___________."
well here is a list to links that i found by researching this. For me personally, it is hard to ask for anything. The result of that is that can leave people wondering if they are just supposed to know. Of course i dont expect you to be a mind reader... but i also dont want to come across like "Do this for me because it will make me happy."
There is a wealth of articles on wikiHow- The How-To Manual That Anyone Can Write or Edit. Anyhow- here are some links from there and other places.
Ever wish your girl or some girl in your life would just be like "Hey, you know something that would make me really happy? ___________."
well here is a list to links that i found by researching this. For me personally, it is hard to ask for anything. The result of that is that can leave people wondering if they are just supposed to know. Of course i dont expect you to be a mind reader... but i also dont want to come across like "Do this for me because it will make me happy."
There is a wealth of articles on wikiHow- The How-To Manual That Anyone Can Write or Edit. Anyhow- here are some links from there and other places.
- http://www.wikihow.com/Show-a-Woman-That-You-Care I agree with every point in this article.
- http://www.wikihow.com/Treat-a-Woman
- http://www.wikihow.com/Treat-a-Girl-Well
- http://jessie357.livejournal.com/17394.html I dont agree with all these... but alot of them are blatantly stereotypical truth
- http://www.themichiganjournal.com/home/index.cfm?event=displayArticle&ustory_id=8c4e89c4-8eda-4ff6-9ac8-9fbfb0cee5f7 not alot of tips but some points well taken by both genders
OK i just stumbled across a how-to article on How To Keep Your Partner From Viewing Internet Porn. hahaha. OK back to business. And if you need that link just holler :) now back to business...
- http://forums.crosswalk.com/m_1892450/mpage_1/key_/tm.htm#1892956
- http://au.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20070326074423AAlg64j&show=7
- http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/8764/tips_for_showing_her_how_special_she.html
Of course- this goes both ways- so I did my own research of what the world seems to think is the way to a mans heart. Here are some highlights from that research and other helpful hints:
- http://www.wikihow.com/Not-Be-an-Obsessive-Girlfriend
- http://www.wikihow.com/Solve-Relationship-Problems
- http://www.wikihow.com/Bring-Love-Into-a-Relationship
- http://www.wikihow.com/Have-a-Long-Term-Relationship
- http://www.wikihow.com/Remove-a-Hickey
- http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Decision-Using-a-Quantitative-Scoring-System
- http://www.couplescompany.com/advice/TOM/ManWants.pdf
- http://www.ahpek.com/index.php/the-naked-truth-about-what-a-man-really-wants-from-his-women/
OK thats enough. I keep getting ditracted. time for potstickers and bed. later yall.
ive decided
that im going to start awarding points to people. This is purely for my own amusement. I will call them bacon points, because points are good, and bacon is sooooooo good. Oh no, you will probably not know when you earn bacon points, and there is no point to them, but they sound like a good way to not die of boredom in those long moments between excitement.
In not-so-related news, inconsistency is pissing me off more than it used to in my younger years. If you are going to be one way, be that way. Dont be wishy washy. What a turn-off.
In other not-so-related news, add me on yahoo messenger.
In not-so-related news, inconsistency is pissing me off more than it used to in my younger years. If you are going to be one way, be that way. Dont be wishy washy. What a turn-off.
In other not-so-related news, add me on yahoo messenger.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Random funny thing
OK so i was browsing Yaho Answers and came across this Q&A. And while I do not endorse violence, it still made me LOL. I mean the real kind of LOL, not the typing kind of LOL
Question:
here's the deal: we're not official yet but were always together, were always asking each other stuff like " how was your day and stuff like that. Thats kinda boring and useless. When i ask her stuff she doesnt say much stuff also. Its usually a one-liner. Any tips?
Answer:
I strongly recommend asking her which of Paul Oakenfold's gllobbal undergrounds she like best. If she says Oslo insttead of New York. Then start hitting her.
No comment, I jsut thought it was funny :)
Question:
here's the deal: we're not official yet but were always together, were always asking each other stuff like " how was your day and stuff like that. Thats kinda boring and useless. When i ask her stuff she doesnt say much stuff also. Its usually a one-liner. Any tips?
Answer:
I strongly recommend asking her which of Paul Oakenfold's gllobbal undergrounds she like best. If she says Oslo insttead of New York. Then start hitting her.
No comment, I jsut thought it was funny :)
RIP Medium
After four months of blissful harmony, one of our danios decided it was hungry for a carnivorous snack mid-day and took a bite out of another one of our danios.
Cheers to you, Medium. I'm sorry Large was such a monster. I shall pour out some liquor for you, homie.
Thats Medium, the blur in the middle of the picture in front of the glow-in-the-dark plant. Damn fish wouldnt sit still and have their picture taken like nice fish. So belligerent.
Today so far
I punched a wall today. Not because I was angry, but because I am a bad judge of distance. Cut my thumb. It only bled a little. But I don’t think I felt as stupid as the hot guy who was talking to me and wasn’t looking where he was going and walked into a half-wall LOL That’s one thing I miss about my last job- there are not nearly enough good-looking guys to keep me interested in being here all day. One guy does remind me quite a bit of someone from my past- to the point of it being impossible to look at him without thinking of that other person- but not to the point of reminiscing. Just kinda weird.
So I discovered I am yearning for something but I don’t know what it is. I am open to suggestions. It may be that I am anxious to get my new life started in Bremerton. I could do without all the trash-talking about Bremerton- So Sorry I cant afford to live in Richtown, USA. People who want to judge me like that are welcome to get the hell out of my life :) Kind of made me feel like the good progress I thought I was making was no good at all. I don’t like to feel that way. I do what I can with what I have. I am not going to sit around complaining about my life and how it is so much harder than anyone else’s blah blah blah- its not my style.
Speaking of style, I wore this amazing new black dress out on Saturday night. I knew I looked good and all, but when I was coming home from dinner a little girl came down from the apartment upstairs and came around the corner and just stared at me like I was Cinderella. That was special. I mean, guys can tell me I look good, and that is always nice to hear and appreciate it, but when I make a little girl stop in her tracks- that’s when I know I hit the right mix of classy and pretty.
Hey I am writing this draft in my outlook email and it is pretty sweet because it capitalizes and adds some grammar which is more than I normally do when I write haha.
More later- now I have to get back to work. I miss having someone to yahoo-flirt with all day. I will have to get a flirt-buddy who uses windows live messenger LOL.
So I discovered I am yearning for something but I don’t know what it is. I am open to suggestions. It may be that I am anxious to get my new life started in Bremerton. I could do without all the trash-talking about Bremerton- So Sorry I cant afford to live in Richtown, USA. People who want to judge me like that are welcome to get the hell out of my life :) Kind of made me feel like the good progress I thought I was making was no good at all. I don’t like to feel that way. I do what I can with what I have. I am not going to sit around complaining about my life and how it is so much harder than anyone else’s blah blah blah- its not my style.
Speaking of style, I wore this amazing new black dress out on Saturday night. I knew I looked good and all, but when I was coming home from dinner a little girl came down from the apartment upstairs and came around the corner and just stared at me like I was Cinderella. That was special. I mean, guys can tell me I look good, and that is always nice to hear and appreciate it, but when I make a little girl stop in her tracks- that’s when I know I hit the right mix of classy and pretty.
Hey I am writing this draft in my outlook email and it is pretty sweet because it capitalizes and adds some grammar which is more than I normally do when I write haha.
More later- now I have to get back to work. I miss having someone to yahoo-flirt with all day. I will have to get a flirt-buddy who uses windows live messenger LOL.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
this weekend
was pretty good for the most part. lets review the highlights.
Friday i worked late, which has become the pattern at this job. I dont mind it; after three weeks i still like my job and feel like i made a great decision and see myself being there quite a while. my boss says the same about me, which is always nice to hear! KK and I grabbed some dinner and went over to Kateys house to hang out and have some beers while the kids played. It was great to see them. katey and I have been through so much together and it is such a great feeling to have a true friend for life, who is never afraid to tell me how it really is.
Friday i worked late, which has become the pattern at this job. I dont mind it; after three weeks i still like my job and feel like i made a great decision and see myself being there quite a while. my boss says the same about me, which is always nice to hear! KK and I grabbed some dinner and went over to Kateys house to hang out and have some beers while the kids played. It was great to see them. katey and I have been through so much together and it is such a great feeling to have a true friend for life, who is never afraid to tell me how it really is.
Theres Katey with a couple of drinks in here in Canada over the winter- maybe New Years Eve.Fabulous Friday didnt last, however, due to my new neighbors. They thought shooting bb guns off the deck would be a good way to introduce themselves to the neighborhood. While that may work for Bubba and Kevbo out in the backwoods, that doesnt fly in the middle of the city. Morons. So I did what any pissed off, cranky, sleep-deprived woman trying to watch the original west side story would do: called the cops. So the cops come out, make a bunch more noise, and i go to bed around midnight. Sounds like the end of the day, yes? NO. haha, tricked you.
200 am- i hear an assload of noise outside my bedroom window. I get up, open the blinds, and see a tow-truck unloading one of my crackhead neighbors cars. so since they are all already up, i guess they figure everyone should be up. they are laughing and carrying on, clanking chains around everywhere, stuff like that, jsut making mmmmmm about as much noise as possible. at 230 it finally stops. So I go back to bed. The worst part of this is that when i was awakened at 200, i was in the middle of a horrible mightmare and felt scared and panicky, went thru my apartment checking doors closets and windows looking for the attackers who had been there before i woke up. So when i fell back asleep i had a bad headache and didnt sleep well the whole rest of the night, which unfortunately only lasted till slightly after 8am. Then saturday began.
Kaytelin had an 11am baseball game out at Kopachuck Upper so we went to my old work to stop by and see Tammy (my old boss) and Myrna, the most badass lady i have ever met. So we hung out there for a little while then went to her game, where a few girls were gone and i got to talk to the coaches wife, who is one of the two moms i do not want to smack for being so snobby and uppity as to make me uncomfortable being around them. She is cool. thumbs up in my book. about 45 minutes into the game it started to pour so we huddled together under someone else's (read: someone more prepared!!!) blanket to keep out of the rain as much as we could. Game over at 1230 and kk and I headed to lunch. I wanted to get a new dress from old navy so i told her if she bahaved i would take her to KFC for lunch. She did, so we ate and headed to run some more errands. She was supposed to be at Mistys at 4 but we didnt get back home till 3, and i had to bake cookies, shave my legs, apply self-tanner, and clean the front rom and my room before we left. I am glad I got all that done because I ended up being rushed for the rest of the afternoon. The day ended with the most delicious $7 Peach beer http://www.merchantduvin.com/pages/5_breweries/lindemans_peche.html I have ever tasted in my life and a 10pm viewing of Shrek the Third. Enjoyable day.Sunday was nice also- stayed in bed till after 11 then got up and went on a Mission: Not Quite Impossible to find air hockey pucks. had a great very yummy lunch and a strong drink at TGI fridays and then went and picked up KK and took her to Prims. Had a nap which is always a pleasurable experience, now I am writing this and getting ready for bed. Tomorrow is another day :)
TTFN haha
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
time to revisit my 10,000th day list
OK here is my list and we will cross things off together :)
Color-coded, of course, Green means completed, Yellow means in progress, and Red means haha yeah right:
1. Move back to Gig Harbor (OK bremerton isnt gig harbor, but i also cant afford gig harbor, but i found everything i wanted in a place closer to work and a better deal- the same place in gig harbor would be at least 1000 a month)
2. Get KK in YMCA after-school care (KK starts Monday, and its all paid for thru the end of the year)
3. Arrange Financial Aid for my E.R. bills (have them all together and jsut havent turned them in)
4. Acquire car insurance (nowhere close on this one)
5. Get a decent raise OR a higher paying job (How about both? Heck yeah, bonus points for me!)
6. Be in some kind of fabulous relationship (no clue on this)
7. Lose 20 pounds (or more) that is about a pound a week- totally doable if i get off my derriere (Halfway there as of last week)
8. Open a savings account (Havent done this- forgot all about it actually)
9. Have spent at least four saturdays at the beach/lake/spit/pool (One down, three to go... this one is the one i am msot excited about honestly LOL)
10. Complete Clear Coating my entire SUV (Bought the stuff for it, washed my car thoroughly in anticipation of starting, then ran out of sun time. So im workin on it)
Lots left to do. Anyone want to help on any of these? Hey- maybe I will combine my 10,000th day party and my ghetto hood party and jsut have one big blowout. Or maybe two parties is better. I will have to think about this.
toodles
Color-coded, of course, Green means completed, Yellow means in progress, and Red means haha yeah right:
1. Move back to Gig Harbor (OK bremerton isnt gig harbor, but i also cant afford gig harbor, but i found everything i wanted in a place closer to work and a better deal- the same place in gig harbor would be at least 1000 a month)
2. Get KK in YMCA after-school care (KK starts Monday, and its all paid for thru the end of the year)
3. Arrange Financial Aid for my E.R. bills (have them all together and jsut havent turned them in)
4. Acquire car insurance (nowhere close on this one)
5. Get a decent raise OR a higher paying job (How about both? Heck yeah, bonus points for me!)
6. Be in some kind of fabulous relationship (no clue on this)
7. Lose 20 pounds (or more) that is about a pound a week- totally doable if i get off my derriere (Halfway there as of last week)
8. Open a savings account (Havent done this- forgot all about it actually)
9. Have spent at least four saturdays at the beach/lake/spit/pool (One down, three to go... this one is the one i am msot excited about honestly LOL)
10. Complete Clear Coating my entire SUV (Bought the stuff for it, washed my car thoroughly in anticipation of starting, then ran out of sun time. So im workin on it)
Lots left to do. Anyone want to help on any of these? Hey- maybe I will combine my 10,000th day party and my ghetto hood party and jsut have one big blowout. Or maybe two parties is better. I will have to think about this.
toodles
i got that place
and i get the keys may 29th. yay for me! i am excited. it may not be alot to some people, but it is a big deal to me. its going to be home for a while. maybe a long long time. it has three bedrooms, a big bathroom with a linen closet, laundry room, garage, yard, its at the end of a culdesac AND kk already has a friend who lives next door that we met when we were looking at the place.
some people at work told me it was the ghetto in that neighborhood... but i looked and its not... and I have a pretty accurate ghettometer. But anyways to celebrate my new place i am going to have an open house- and because they said its in the ghetto im going to have a hood party wioth a ghetto theme. everyone bring your Old-E and wear your bling- mama's cooking fried chicken and some one is going to roll on dubs. all are invited, yo.
OK anyways back to my place. Its way cute- even the name of the street is cute. my dutch lady landlord is way cool. and there is cable in every room- oh yeah baby.
i am just really excited. Life is coming together- great new job, great new place, jsut about everything i need! two things on my list of things to do before my 10,000th day are done.
WAIT!!!!!
Three things are done! KK got into the YMCA kids camp so wow i am really cookin on my list :)
time to revisit it and see where i stand. Look for a 10,000th day list countdown update blog soon!
kisses to you all
some people at work told me it was the ghetto in that neighborhood... but i looked and its not... and I have a pretty accurate ghettometer. But anyways to celebrate my new place i am going to have an open house- and because they said its in the ghetto im going to have a hood party wioth a ghetto theme. everyone bring your Old-E and wear your bling- mama's cooking fried chicken and some one is going to roll on dubs. all are invited, yo.
OK anyways back to my place. Its way cute- even the name of the street is cute. my dutch lady landlord is way cool. and there is cable in every room- oh yeah baby.
i am just really excited. Life is coming together- great new job, great new place, jsut about everything i need! two things on my list of things to do before my 10,000th day are done.
WAIT!!!!!
Three things are done! KK got into the YMCA kids camp so wow i am really cookin on my list :)
time to revisit it and see where i stand. Look for a 10,000th day list countdown update blog soon!
kisses to you all
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
a kitsap adventure
my mission, since i chose to accept it, was to find a place to cash my paycheck, my first one from my new job, and get a $15 money order to pay the (wait- have to do a google search on what do you call people from holland, brb) oh yeah- dutch- i shuddup i should have known that... okay to pay the dutch rental lady for the credit check.
ok so since i do not currently have a bank account, i needed to either A: open one, or B: go to a check-cashing place and get it cashed for a nominal fee. OK considering option A, I didnt have the proper paperwork, I only had my ID and SS card with me
ok back to the story- I went into Kitsap Bank to open an account and was told that was fine with the ID i had, except they would not be able to cash my check, they would have to hold it for a couple days to 'get things established.' OK well fine but i needed the $15 for the dutch lady. so that was out. Strike one.
Went driving around Bremerton looking for a check cashing place- didnt find a single one. but i tried... for an hour and a half. drove up and down and down and up east and west and tried following where the traffic was going to find business areas but ended up like wtf is everything in bremerton an auto repair shop or a bank or a crackhouse? got lost in disturbia and had a nise leisurely drive through nobody knows but ended up finding myself at a place that i had mistakenly gotten lost at last week. i recognized it enough to get myself the heck outta there. OK most people know i love to drive and take drives, but few if any know how much iHATE HATE HATE to be lost. thankfully it very rarely ever happens
so after i meandered back to the 3 i went up to silverdale, but instead of getting off at the mall exit which would have put me in exactly the place i needed to be, i got off at the earlier exit into south of silverdale. followed the traffic, and finally found a check cashing place. So happy!!! especially because i was starting to stick to my seat like you only can when you are wearing a skirt that doesnt come to your knees. plus i had to pee. badly.
so i go in and this gorgeous chickie smiles at me that of course she can help me, then takes my info and frowns at me that they do not verify bank of america paychecks. Strike two. But she does give me the somehwat helpful yet oh-so-vague information that the Cash Box by the safeway in bremerton probably would. OK good. except i dont know what safeway in bremerton. or where any are, but i assume there are multiples. So since i am Smart Driver With Amazing Instincts Woman, I just get in my car and start driving in a direction that feels east.
I end up in construction and a detour, of course, then see the dreaded sign "Freeway Entrance" wtf? there arent supposed to be any freeways in east bremerton. no one told me. i did not get the memo.
hate to do it, but i call my mom. she tries her best to find the east bremerton safeway but gives up when she cant figure out why the safeway website wants her to log in jsut to find a store. she is of the school that believes anyone who wants a password is going to take your credit card information and steal your identity.
so to end my story because im pissed off now because i formatted this wrong and when i 'saved as draft' it erased a bunch of the entertaining part:. after three hours i acheived my mission, got some pretty good orange chicken and met some pretty girls and hot guys along the way.
adventure closed.
ok so since i do not currently have a bank account, i needed to either A: open one, or B: go to a check-cashing place and get it cashed for a nominal fee. OK considering option A, I didnt have the proper paperwork, I only had my ID and SS card with me
ok back to the story- I went into Kitsap Bank to open an account and was told that was fine with the ID i had, except they would not be able to cash my check, they would have to hold it for a couple days to 'get things established.' OK well fine but i needed the $15 for the dutch lady. so that was out. Strike one.
Went driving around Bremerton looking for a check cashing place- didnt find a single one. but i tried... for an hour and a half. drove up and down and down and up east and west and tried following where the traffic was going to find business areas but ended up like wtf is everything in bremerton an auto repair shop or a bank or a crackhouse? got lost in disturbia and had a nise leisurely drive through nobody knows but ended up finding myself at a place that i had mistakenly gotten lost at last week. i recognized it enough to get myself the heck outta there. OK most people know i love to drive and take drives, but few if any know how much i
so after i meandered back to the 3 i went up to silverdale, but instead of getting off at the mall exit which would have put me in exactly the place i needed to be, i got off at the earlier exit into south of silverdale. followed the traffic, and finally found a check cashing place. So happy!!! especially because i was starting to stick to my seat like you only can when you are wearing a skirt that doesnt come to your knees. plus i had to pee. badly.
so i go in and this gorgeous chickie smiles at me that of course she can help me, then takes my info and frowns at me that they do not verify bank of america paychecks. Strike two. But she does give me the somehwat helpful yet oh-so-vague information that the Cash Box by the safeway in bremerton probably would. OK good. except i dont know what safeway in bremerton. or where any are, but i assume there are multiples. So since i am Smart Driver With Amazing Instincts Woman, I just get in my car and start driving in a direction that feels east.
I end up in construction and a detour, of course, then see the dreaded sign "Freeway Entrance" wtf? there arent supposed to be any freeways in east bremerton. no one told me. i did not get the memo.
hate to do it, but i call my mom. she tries her best to find the east bremerton safeway but gives up when she cant figure out why the safeway website wants her to log in jsut to find a store. she is of the school that believes anyone who wants a password is going to take your credit card information and steal your identity.
so to end my story because im pissed off now because i formatted this wrong and when i 'saved as draft' it erased a bunch of the entertaining part:. after three hours i acheived my mission, got some pretty good orange chicken and met some pretty girls and hot guys along the way.
adventure closed.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
"things end up how they are supposed to"
that pearl of wisdom dropped out of someone's mouth today. i understand that- but what i dont know is how to not care in the meantime... how to not let my feelings and disappointments show. I know that everything that happens is leading up to another thing that will happen and it is all experiences and learning and what i dont get is why some people are able to bounce back up so quickly and some jsut get pummeled over and over and all at once.
as i predicted...
back to the whining and all that. The sun went away, reality set in, im back to being as messed up as i get. i feel like something is really wrong with me and i dont know what. like i am close to having my shit together... but every time i get close to something good it is taken away from me or doesnt work out so its like why even bother. i have to move and i cant make it happen. i am so discouraged. like even if i find a place i wont be able to afford the deposit and stuff to move in so whats the point in even looking. i just need someone to take control of my life for a minute and figure out where i am going so freaking wrong.
then theres this guy, and he is great and jsut what i need but somehow even though he makes me as happy as i get, i decide its not enough?!? wtf? it has me so backwards in the head and i am tired of dealing with all the emotions i jsut want to shut down and not have any emotions at all. it seems to be so easy for some people to jsut not care.
it is so hard to feel like i am not enough. not enough to make someone happy... not a good enough mom, not a good enough anything. like how am i so delusional that i think i am enough- because i msut be wrong because i seem to be the only one on the planet who thinks that i am worth anything.
im tired of crying, my face hurts- its chapped and my contacts are getting all mad at me and i have an awful headache and i cannot even picture getting up in the morning and putting on a happy face as i head to my job that is still pretty new.
add to that mess that i created a traffic cop who wanted to yell at me. OK here he is directing mariners game traffic and he is signaling the lane i am in to go go go then when i am halfway thru the intersection he changes his mind and i slam on my brakes in the middle of the walkway- then he wants to come over and i have my window down because i am all hot and crying my eyes out about stuff and he actually says dont you see the sign and i said yes sir but i thought that when an officer is directing traffic it overrules the sign and he says thats jsut stupid, you are lucky i dont have time to write you a $191 ticket and he starts walking away. then like a dumbass i start yakking with my window still down about oh you are really going to give me shit like this when i am already crying? yeah happy fucking mothers day to me thanks alot dickhead. then he starts approaching me again so i jsut go because i dont want to deal with it.
So because i am in an unfamiliar part of town and should have really been looking at signs instead of crying too hard to see anything, i miss the onramp and end up heading on i90 towards spokane before i realize what i am doing and have to figure out my way back to going the right way.
I had intended on going to the old navy at southcenter because they have different stuff and its a bigger store than either of the ones in tacoma today but i was too upset so i didnt go. Can you imagine- i was so upset i didnt go shopping at a store i had a big gift card to?
things are not quite right with the world today.
I am glad i stay really busy at work so tomorrow will come and go quickly and so will every other day until i feel ok.
i hate that temporary feeling of 'i am not going to be okay.'
then theres this guy, and he is great and jsut what i need but somehow even though he makes me as happy as i get, i decide its not enough?!? wtf? it has me so backwards in the head and i am tired of dealing with all the emotions i jsut want to shut down and not have any emotions at all. it seems to be so easy for some people to jsut not care.
it is so hard to feel like i am not enough. not enough to make someone happy... not a good enough mom, not a good enough anything. like how am i so delusional that i think i am enough- because i msut be wrong because i seem to be the only one on the planet who thinks that i am worth anything.
im tired of crying, my face hurts- its chapped and my contacts are getting all mad at me and i have an awful headache and i cannot even picture getting up in the morning and putting on a happy face as i head to my job that is still pretty new.
add to that mess that i created a traffic cop who wanted to yell at me. OK here he is directing mariners game traffic and he is signaling the lane i am in to go go go then when i am halfway thru the intersection he changes his mind and i slam on my brakes in the middle of the walkway- then he wants to come over and i have my window down because i am all hot and crying my eyes out about stuff and he actually says dont you see the sign and i said yes sir but i thought that when an officer is directing traffic it overrules the sign and he says thats jsut stupid, you are lucky i dont have time to write you a $191 ticket and he starts walking away. then like a dumbass i start yakking with my window still down about oh you are really going to give me shit like this when i am already crying? yeah happy fucking mothers day to me thanks alot dickhead. then he starts approaching me again so i jsut go because i dont want to deal with it.
So because i am in an unfamiliar part of town and should have really been looking at signs instead of crying too hard to see anything, i miss the onramp and end up heading on i90 towards spokane before i realize what i am doing and have to figure out my way back to going the right way.
I had intended on going to the old navy at southcenter because they have different stuff and its a bigger store than either of the ones in tacoma today but i was too upset so i didnt go. Can you imagine- i was so upset i didnt go shopping at a store i had a big gift card to?
things are not quite right with the world today.
I am glad i stay really busy at work so tomorrow will come and go quickly and so will every other day until i feel ok.
i hate that temporary feeling of 'i am not going to be okay.'
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
summers coming!
ah the sun. nothing cheers me up more than great warm weather, cold drinks and something fun to do. last summer was awesome- lots of great dinner parties with great conversations, delicious food, good drinks, impromptu fashion shows- formal wear for the ladies, lingerie for the gents- (good times) So much fun. Met lots of new people, some great guys, many new friends, and hope to do the same this summer. This is where i would insert the old adage about old friends being gold and new ones being silver but i always mess it up, so instead i wont :) 
So I will definitely be moving in either June or July, Looking for something along the west side of Hwy 3, Port Orchard, Gorst, Sunnyslope, hell- even Chico would be OK lol... as long as it is nice and we can call it home. So all you Kitsapians (??) keep your eyes peeled, or if you read the paper, let me know if you find a 2bdrm 2ba home on an acre with w/d hookups and a garage for $700 LOL ok ok I would take most of the above :)
Changes are coming- im excited and a little apprehensive... but i know im on a great road and im excited to see what the future has in store for me.
Now wait till it rains three days in a row and my blogging will be back to normal LOL whining and moaning etc.
Im telling you- its the UV rays- they do something to me!
So I will definitely be moving in either June or July, Looking for something along the west side of Hwy 3, Port Orchard, Gorst, Sunnyslope, hell- even Chico would be OK lol... as long as it is nice and we can call it home. So all you Kitsapians (??) keep your eyes peeled, or if you read the paper, let me know if you find a 2bdrm 2ba home on an acre with w/d hookups and a garage for $700 LOL ok ok I would take most of the above :)Changes are coming- im excited and a little apprehensive... but i know im on a great road and im excited to see what the future has in store for me.
Now wait till it rains three days in a row and my blogging will be back to normal LOL whining and moaning etc.
Im telling you- its the UV rays- they do something to me!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
advice from the ladies
any of you brilliant women out there have any words of wisdom for me? i am in the unfortunate situation of having fallen for someone who has not fallen for me back. I need some pointers on getting past the rejection. I already know im fabulous, but how do I accept that he thinks differently? Email or myspace me your suggestions. If you dont have my email or myspace, leave a comment. Thanks!
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