where am i?

The prettiest girl in Texas asked me what happened to me and here is my answer to her and anyone else wondering.
Im just being lame- like normal- social for a while then WHOOSH its off the face of the planet. Blogging will resume with full force August 1st.

my 100th post

wish it was something of meaning! i really should take this time to review my 10,000th day checklist which i am failing miserably on, but i am too hot and cranky.
ok so friday morning i woke up and it took me half an hour to get out of bed and to the bathroom- my back was paralyzed and i couldnt walk and i almost peed on the floor. then a couple hours i woke up in so much pain that i called my mom bawling. they wouldnt listen that i would be okay so they came and mom stayed with kk and dad took me to the ER. i could barely move and every movement hurt so badly that after lsitening to me cry for like three hours they gave me a shot of dilotin (?) in my butt and i felt oh so much better instantly. sent me home a few hours later with percoset, vicodin, flexaril and motrin for anti-inflammatory and i have felt much better since although i spent most of the weekend sleeping (understandably!!!)
so hopefully knock on wood i am on the road to recovery and kk doesnt get sick again and we get thru the rest of the month in two pieces.
next month is seafair and i always get so excited to go! i have to figure something out though because i am so broke after all these prescriptions and two days of missed work. if anyone wants to go see the hydroplanes and air show with me lemme know.

holla at ur girl :P

while i was gone

i was thinking about posting the week in review as an interview because it usually turns out pretty entertaining when i interview myself... but when i can feel sweat trickling down my legs and i am jsut sitting here- well suffice it to say all the funny is sucked out of me right now.
its hot. im cranky when its so hot.
anyhoo-
kk got really sick and was in the emergency room overnight july 3rd so our 4th was spent laying around doing Nothing. So was the next day except for a super-long emergency visit to the dentist on my part. i have a grotesque fear of the dentist from when one tried to kill me as a youngster... maybe thast story later. anyways kk and i did almost Nothing that day as well but she was feeling better and almost ate something. Then friday more of the same- high fever, being disoriented, not breathing, weird scary stuff for a parent to go thru. So we went back to the docs for more tests and well almost a week later they still havent figured anything out. but she is all better. not on any meds. i am on penecillin for my jaw infection which you know what that does to girls. so yeah intense jaw pain, that antibiotics/female thing, and i threw my back out at the driving range saturday. im a hurtin puppy.
enough complaining. today was payday which means a nice meal with kk at anthonys. we almost always go out to anthonys for dinner on payday. she has improved on fine dining manners tremendously and it is so fun/terrifying to watch my little girl turn into such a young lady.
we have decided i am going to have a goal of getting a pic of kk in every make of car on the market. doesnt sound too hard until you throw in the deloreans and lotuses of the world. i ahve only seen two lotuses on the road Ever in my life. so we will see- but we will sure have fun trying.
so its really hot- we went to the sprayground in tacoma today for a couple hours which was way fun except it is an hour away. top chef is on tonight. i like that show alot and the next food network star, and all that other reality crap. oy. whatever brings on the escape, right? LOL
ok so my old boss asked me today about my love life. which is temporarily non-existent. which is soooo temporarily fine with me. but if anyone knows any quality guys lemme know :) kk and i have been going to the beach alot which used to work to meet people but honestly i am much more into whatever book i am devouring and not even people-watching when we go these days.
sorry this one is boring folks. lets hope things stay boring for a sec- im still reviving myself from the week my boss was gone!
have a good rest of the week readers!

back again.

ok im sorry my absence will be explained rather vaguely but i have to clear up a misinterpretation.
i went off the air for a little under a week while i calmed down and thought about the best way to approach the situation that wasnt me rushing into anything and making a mountain out of a molehill. here is my explanation.
readers you know that i am a pretty logical person and i know the difference between PERSONAL and PRIVATE. I am not stupid enough to think that the readers of my blog are limited to only the people I know are reading my blog. so my private stuff (including almost all names, places, and specifics) stays private. personal things are things about me. my blog is about me. i control everything about it. i can put thoughts whether they are planned or spontaneous- and i can talk about myself and my day and not only is it a good way to get stuff out, it is a very easy way for people who miss me (love you girls!!) to get a good dose of my sarcastic cynical yet for some reason naive and hopeful attitude.
that is what this blog is.
now let me tell you what my blog is not.
my blog is not to hurt people or to be misunderstood. i do not attack people thinking they may read this so what can i say to piss them off. my blog is not somewhere i go to be purposefully mean. most of all and lastly, my blog is not a tool for someone to use to lead to the hurting of anybody.
so to summarize my opinion of this, and after talking it over with bowlie and a couple of gfs, i have decided to reopen my blog to the public. here is why. it is my blog. i have no apologies for its contents. there is nothing false about it and it is everything i felt at the time i felt it. if i cannot be honest with myself through the authoring of this blog, i really have no place teaching my daughter how to have integrity, be true to herself, and go through life with conviction.
here are a few comments pointed enough to go to the people they are intended for:
***To person number one: i do like you. you have a ton of qualities i wish i had for myself, namely patience, empathy, and grace. although i can get upset by you or your actions at times, i truly hope you see it for what it is: passion and frustration, and NOT disdain for you. i also do not believe we have a relationship where it really matters whether we like or dislike each other personally as long as we can get to the same place at the same time.
***To person number two: i dont trust you as far as i can throw you anymore, and i throw like a girl. what you did was ruin my first attempt out here to reach out and make a friend. i have two things to thank you for, first, for reminding me that there is a huge difference between what some people say and what they do, and second that trust should be earned and not freely given. which sucks and hurts me, because i think you are badass and would have loved to be your friend.
***To person number three: thinkin about you!

ok you guys caught me- you are all #3! its good to be back...
xoxo

some people

jsut make me smile. and some people make me want to turn around and RUN the other way. i had the opportunity to come in contact with both types today. and that is all i am going to say about that.

hey guess what i did at work today? made a $300,000 mistake. yup, thats right. when i do it up i do it up big style. i think it is fixable. guess we will find out!

hmm what else can i be incredibly vague about? how about this statement: Im thinking about you. Hmmm how many of you do you think i am talking about you? well you are WRONG!!! haha

Here is a conundrum for the evening: You can change your address on line... but you have to pay a dollar, and the dollar must go on a credit card- as long as the billing address on the credit card matches the address you are changing. WTF?

OK random picture for the day: My 'how do you say?' ah yes... toes.

its a phase

i jsut dont feel like being social. i dont know if it is the fact that i feel like no one wants to hang out with me or what. maybe i am temporarily getting used to feeling alone. i hate thinking about that but i know it is part of life. well- part of my life anyways.

this weekend was fun/not fun. haha nice explanation huh.

i was super-bummed that my buddy never got to come down- scheduling conflict plus communication mix-up = these things happen. but kk and i had a great time at my cousins all day not-so-fourth of july party saturday. got to drink and hang out with family and let kk play and enjoy the sun and then a fireworks show. here's a pic of kk watching with a friend and family:

here is kk earlier in the day on our way to the party. she was sitting on a display bed at fred meyers pageant-waving to everyone who walked by.

and here is a pic from kks last baseball game of her and a couple of friends in the back of the truck between innings:what a goofball.

in other news, my fabulous wonderful perfect in every way grandma would have been 96 today if she wouldnt have died a few years ago. happy birthday grandma! i love and miss you and hope you Are proud of me!