was so fun. i love picking out home furnishings and the fact that home depot was having a lighting sale well i was temporarily in heaven. two glass and brushed nickel modern lamps marked down from 70 to 19? doesnt get better than that. And a matching brushed nickel and frosted glass dining room fixture. the new place is coming together quite well :) most of the furniture is over except the heavy stuff and i have help this week. thank you kindness-of-your-heart man!
Im very excited that summer is here! out with the old, boring, and bad in bed, and in with all new and much more pleasing to me! Sometimes I wish there was a class to teach guys how to um you know before they are ever unleashed into the public. would save me some time, thats for sure. of course i have had the fortune to meet a couple of guys who could teach that seminar... where are their numbers again? lol
jsut got back from buying some tools at schucks from my friends cutiepie husband. going to take my bed apart and get it ready to move. not so much left to do... a few more loads and then it will be time to plan my housewarming bbq. better check the calendar and learn how to grill :)
in other news- mr man decided to officially end everything and everything today via text. yes, text. lmao. even a week ago i would have been really hurt... as it is i couldnt stop laughing. i keep trying to figure out what i learned from that whole experience... here is a short list of what i have come up with:
1. dont settle for someone who cannot physically please you, no matter how much you suck it up and act like it is great.
2. most people lie. i know i do sometimes. but usually only to cops. so people who come off like they are so honest and such good people and oh they would never lie are probably the bigger liars of the group than those of us who will admit that we have done it and will probably do it again.
3. anyone who ever tells you they are immature is right!
4. i would still rather be fabulous and struggling than a socially awkward bad dresser with money.
5. seafood kicks thai foods ass.
6. theres reasons some people are single for so long. wrinkly little smelly sweaty reasons.
im very excited to see what my reward is for putting up with that crap for so long.
and for the record, Ian's hat is a pimp hat.
toodles!
Monday, June 18, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
gabriella
one of my best friends morgan had her first baby this morning! it is so weird for my friends to be so many years behind me in the child-having stage of life... but i am happy for them trust me. and they all love kk because they havent been ruined by their own kids yet haha.
morgan and i have been friends since we were 4 years old and have stayed super-close through multi-state moves (her) inter-state moves (me) and boyfriends galore (both of us.)
anyways she has a great man in her life (tony) and they made this precious little baby so i am happy to present my fave newborn, gabby.
Friday, June 15, 2007
5 things...
I hate:
1. Spitting
2. Horseradish
3. Lying
4. Doing dishes
5. Giving up on people
I need to do this weekend:
1. Bring drinks for the baseball team
2. Pack
3. Move
4. Dance
5. RSVP to Spencers party
I want right now:
1. A cuddle
2. Mint chocolate chip ice cream in a waffle cone
3. to be able to sleep in once
4. A text
5. A 'move planner' like a wedding planner only for a more major event (a move) haha
But seriously- I love my new haircut and it is making me happier than i have been in a while. Like since last weekend LOL
Love and miss you girls and guys you rock too :)
Remember your end of the deal... I will watch Charlie if you find me someone to get me in the paper hahaha
1. Spitting
2. Horseradish
3. Lying
4. Doing dishes
5. Giving up on people
I need to do this weekend:
1. Bring drinks for the baseball team
2. Pack
3. Move
4. Dance
5. RSVP to Spencers party
I want right now:
1. A cuddle
2. Mint chocolate chip ice cream in a waffle cone
3. to be able to sleep in once
4. A text
5. A 'move planner' like a wedding planner only for a more major event (a move) haha
But seriously- I love my new haircut and it is making me happier than i have been in a while. Like since last weekend LOL
Love and miss you girls and guys you rock too :)
Remember your end of the deal... I will watch Charlie if you find me someone to get me in the paper hahaha
Thursday, June 14, 2007
im bribing myself
since i cant seem to get my ass in gear and am starting to get really nervous about running out of time on my move, i decided that if i get a whole bunch done tonight I will let myself go dancing on friday or saturday night because a band I really like is going to be at the muckleshoot. That is a good reward for myself :) but things arent looking too hopeful. Even jsut writing these few sentences took me about an hour because i was watching tv and looking up stuff online. OK but at least i took a nap this afternoon for about an hour and now I feel like I can actually pack up some of the kitchen. If I get the kitchen done tonight I will be in good shape for the weekend. Ugh I have to remember that KK has a baseball game on sat morning at 9!! OK that jsut made it official that i will not be going out dancing friday night HA.
OK so I am watching So You Think You Can Dance... a dancing reality show... and i think a lot of the appeal for me is that i cannot dance at all. I am good at that middle-school swaying slow-dance schtick but that doesnt count for anything any more. And I am awesome at the classics: No, not those classics, Im talking about The Sprinkler, The Running Man, The Moonwalk, you know, those ones. haha if you have gone out with me, you know I can only joke dance and it is always funny. maybe its because i am always drunk. who knows? :)
Anyhoo, today started rough with kk and I getting so into we made each other cry. It is so awesome to have a stonrg-willed intelligent daughter who can fight her way out of anything, BUT i am a spoiled only brat jsut like she is, so in a situation where there is a winner and loser, it can get very ugly. But nothing like a sausage mcmuffin for her and a large iced hazelnut coffee for me to say hey i still love you and your attitude. Then on my way to work everything was sucking so bad, like everything that could suck was, that when i got out of the car i said to tiff "I should have stayed in the shower this morning because everything that has happened since I got out has been shit" and that wasnt even the shittiest part of the day. A couple things happened I am not going to get into here but nothing that a good cry and some speeding down the road on my lunch break couldnt fix.
OK now I have to leave you and go pack!!!! Seriously! Leave me alone! Wait youre not doing anything. For real though- any kind of encouragement to get my ass in gear is more than welcome... a comment, an email or instant message, text, money or fresh baked goods are all accepted.
Love ya!
OK so I am watching So You Think You Can Dance... a dancing reality show... and i think a lot of the appeal for me is that i cannot dance at all. I am good at that middle-school swaying slow-dance schtick but that doesnt count for anything any more. And I am awesome at the classics: No, not those classics, Im talking about The Sprinkler, The Running Man, The Moonwalk, you know, those ones. haha if you have gone out with me, you know I can only joke dance and it is always funny. maybe its because i am always drunk. who knows? :)
Anyhoo, today started rough with kk and I getting so into we made each other cry. It is so awesome to have a stonrg-willed intelligent daughter who can fight her way out of anything, BUT i am a spoiled only brat jsut like she is, so in a situation where there is a winner and loser, it can get very ugly. But nothing like a sausage mcmuffin for her and a large iced hazelnut coffee for me to say hey i still love you and your attitude. Then on my way to work everything was sucking so bad, like everything that could suck was, that when i got out of the car i said to tiff "I should have stayed in the shower this morning because everything that has happened since I got out has been shit" and that wasnt even the shittiest part of the day. A couple things happened I am not going to get into here but nothing that a good cry and some speeding down the road on my lunch break couldnt fix.
OK now I have to leave you and go pack!!!! Seriously! Leave me alone! Wait youre not doing anything. For real though- any kind of encouragement to get my ass in gear is more than welcome... a comment, an email or instant message, text, money or fresh baked goods are all accepted.
Love ya!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
i've been schmoozed!!!
a nice part of my new job is sales reps come out and basically kiss our asses so we buy their stuff. of course, we dont have to buy anything we dont want to, and they are too busy with their bazillion other customers to bother us to terribly much if we dont respond to them right away. plus we already have most of our stock set up in bond with one supplier so we are pretty golden as long as i forecast correctly.
Anyways, today we had a visit from a bothell company, the industrial sales rep (A) who my boss and i already talk to, and his boss (N) the sales manager. So they drive up in a shiny new black s-class and come upstairs.
Sidenote: It is always interesting to me to see people for the first time who you talk to over other means of comunication. A lot of people meet online, and that is different because there is usually a photo or webcam so you still have a general idea what a person looks like. One guy I met online however looked nothing like his old ass picture, which is neither a good or bad thing, as neither was particularly impressive. The last big sales rep I met turned out to be this snaky little man, which shocked and surprised me because of the magic he can pull off with getting us product.
Anyhoo back to today. I was pulling POs from the binder to give to Tiff when Mish the wonder receptionist came around and told me A and N were here. Damn, my boss was downstairs so I had to meet them first. Deep breath, shy girl. OK So I turn around and standing in front of me were this incredibly gorgeous man (N) and his chubby sidekick (A). Yowzers. Chubby sidekick made my heart skip a beat LOL I am sure I turned all red but oh well. So I met them and although handsome men are nice to look at, they are not really my style. But I couldnt believe how attracted to A i was. So then my boss comes upstairs and we all go into the conference room to schmooze or be schmoozed. How fabulous to be able to be treated to eye candy. And what a nice guy he was too. Fabulous start to the day.
It was great to have the tangible evidence in front of me that even though I had forgotten how stunning and wonderful i am and that any man would be lucky to have me, here he was to remind me how many fish are in the sea, and if the one I have spent the last 6 months basting in my skillet overcooks, throw him back and start over and the results can be way better. OK sorry but what would a blog from me be without my shitty analogies LOL
So then the day is great from that point on. They leave and I work hard and Oh yeah it was payday... which is great because I am hourly and get to make OT. Until i get my check and realize that I did not get paid for memorial day like i was told i would. WTF? because I specifically asked and told that i was and I should have gotten everything in writing from the office manager. Blah I know better than that. So now since OT is not OT, my check is a couple hundred less than i thought it would be. Guess I will have to wait till next pay period to get my automatic garage door opener :( But we all know that is not the point. Not only that, other employess who finish their shift before i do had been calling that their paychecks were bouncing. so i didnt even go to the bank today- no point. but that was a crappy way to end the day... but it wasnt over yet.
So I work about 45 minutes past quitting time and go to the liquor store, and who should page on my way there but mr man, asking me why some simple conversation yesterday had turned into something so dramatic.
I have to interrupt myself here to make the point that somehow I fould the only man on the face of the planet who thinks I am a drama queen.
So yeah how do i explain in a text message, not that i even wanted to, that it was hard for me to have the convo last night because i heard some really unpleasant things about his feelings or lack of feelings for me, and that the whole phone call was pretty much to say goodbye because i wasnt going to contact him anymore? i guess it is harder for me than it is for him to say goodbye. So i tried to explain that and pretty much have my feelings voided as is practice for the two of us. I have tried so many ways to tell him that not only does he not make me feel important like he used to and like he should as the exclusive man in my life... he makes me feel unimportant most of the time. But nothing i say seems to make any sense to him so why even try.
So I ended that call yesterday saying he knows how to get ahold of me. But I dont think he will, since I am too high-maintenance. (you have got to be kidding me) anyways... so that whole thing is over.
Back to work in the morning- im so glad it is thursday but i sure hope i dont have to do anything with the OM cause I feel like slappin somebody todaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... (amanda its not you for once HAHAHAHAHA)
Anyways, today we had a visit from a bothell company, the industrial sales rep (A) who my boss and i already talk to, and his boss (N) the sales manager. So they drive up in a shiny new black s-class and come upstairs.
Sidenote: It is always interesting to me to see people for the first time who you talk to over other means of comunication. A lot of people meet online, and that is different because there is usually a photo or webcam so you still have a general idea what a person looks like. One guy I met online however looked nothing like his old ass picture, which is neither a good or bad thing, as neither was particularly impressive. The last big sales rep I met turned out to be this snaky little man, which shocked and surprised me because of the magic he can pull off with getting us product.
Anyhoo back to today. I was pulling POs from the binder to give to Tiff when Mish the wonder receptionist came around and told me A and N were here. Damn, my boss was downstairs so I had to meet them first. Deep breath, shy girl. OK So I turn around and standing in front of me were this incredibly gorgeous man (N) and his chubby sidekick (A). Yowzers. Chubby sidekick made my heart skip a beat LOL I am sure I turned all red but oh well. So I met them and although handsome men are nice to look at, they are not really my style. But I couldnt believe how attracted to A i was. So then my boss comes upstairs and we all go into the conference room to schmooze or be schmoozed. How fabulous to be able to be treated to eye candy. And what a nice guy he was too. Fabulous start to the day.
It was great to have the tangible evidence in front of me that even though I had forgotten how stunning and wonderful i am and that any man would be lucky to have me, here he was to remind me how many fish are in the sea, and if the one I have spent the last 6 months basting in my skillet overcooks, throw him back and start over and the results can be way better. OK sorry but what would a blog from me be without my shitty analogies LOL
So then the day is great from that point on. They leave and I work hard and Oh yeah it was payday... which is great because I am hourly and get to make OT. Until i get my check and realize that I did not get paid for memorial day like i was told i would. WTF? because I specifically asked and told that i was and I should have gotten everything in writing from the office manager. Blah I know better than that. So now since OT is not OT, my check is a couple hundred less than i thought it would be. Guess I will have to wait till next pay period to get my automatic garage door opener :( But we all know that is not the point. Not only that, other employess who finish their shift before i do had been calling that their paychecks were bouncing. so i didnt even go to the bank today- no point. but that was a crappy way to end the day... but it wasnt over yet.
So I work about 45 minutes past quitting time and go to the liquor store, and who should page on my way there but mr man, asking me why some simple conversation yesterday had turned into something so dramatic.
I have to interrupt myself here to make the point that somehow I fould the only man on the face of the planet who thinks I am a drama queen.
So yeah how do i explain in a text message, not that i even wanted to, that it was hard for me to have the convo last night because i heard some really unpleasant things about his feelings or lack of feelings for me, and that the whole phone call was pretty much to say goodbye because i wasnt going to contact him anymore? i guess it is harder for me than it is for him to say goodbye. So i tried to explain that and pretty much have my feelings voided as is practice for the two of us. I have tried so many ways to tell him that not only does he not make me feel important like he used to and like he should as the exclusive man in my life... he makes me feel unimportant most of the time. But nothing i say seems to make any sense to him so why even try.
So I ended that call yesterday saying he knows how to get ahold of me. But I dont think he will, since I am too high-maintenance. (you have got to be kidding me) anyways... so that whole thing is over.
Back to work in the morning- im so glad it is thursday but i sure hope i dont have to do anything with the OM cause I feel like slappin somebody todaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... (amanda its not you for once HAHAHAHAHA)
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
i should be sleeping
havent been doing much of that lately. but dont want to, so no conflict there anymore :)
its really hard on the ego to be dismissed so easily but it has happened before and will happen again.
OK so good news- the washer and dryer are in! Thanks guys. Captain on the way but probably not tonight because i was too busy ummmm going to a pity party. But you rock and i am going to miss you because you are cool. way supa-fly. we should party this summer at my ghetto crib.
anyways... i think i recall drawing the kitchen sink for dishes about 40 minutes ago so i think i will go do that. i know, right? me doing dishes? it is jsut so i can move them, dont worry friends.
i will use this time to advertise my Product of the year: Aleve CS.
Whether you are truly ill and cant afford to miss work, or jsut need the pick-me-up value of a slightly-not-quite-but-maybe-should-be upper of pseudephedrine, this is the pill for you. No nasty side effects, all day extended-release... its perfect in every way. Just dont ever ever ever take it before bed unless you want to be up organizing cabinets and frying chicken at 1am.
There have been a couple of incidents involving me and this medicine... since you have to sign for it at the grocery store so they make sure you arent making meth with it. When i am truly sick and cant get this OTC medicine because the pharmacy is closed, I can get jsut a little grumpy. Or a whole lot.
Anyways, another worthless boring blog in the books. Time to drink.
Monday, June 11, 2007
hmmmmmm...
what boring crap to write about today?
work was pretty lame- for some reason i couldnt get my ass in gear and concentrate- felt so abd about it i brought work home and am taking a break from it right now. I tried to do some at dinner but mr man decide he wanted to have the 'i dont want a girlfriend' chat over text. yeah. text. nice huh? after yesterday he says he wants to hang out after i get moved. whatever. mixed messages suck ass.
in other better news, dinner was delicious... tortellini alla panna from bella nina YUM. :::newsflash::: cream sauces do NOT cure sadness no matter how hard you try.
my house is still kinda messy because i am packing and trying to live, work overtime, commute, raise a kid, and get over a delusional 'relationship' all at the same time and it is jsut draining of my energy. so home is not exactly the refuge i want it to be right now.
:::dont read this cause its sappy- but i really have very mixed feelings about leaving memories of the past 6 months here. every time he rang my doorbell- and especially the first time i dressed up special for him. when he opened that door and i saw the look on his face- i never felt so good. at the same time it sucks right now when so long goes by and he doesnt knock on the door. why cant i just meet him in 5 years when things are different? why the f do i care anyways? we are so not right for each other and i deserve someone who doesnt see my interest as an inconvenience... so wtf is wrong with me that i still care? AAAARGGHHHHH!!:::
big deep breath
OK better. not really but whatever.
im kind of looking forward to a summer distraction. of course there is always k... he says he will come up and see me in bremerton- things are a little weird right now. i was venting to him and out of nowhere he is like- hey i like you, we always get along, we never fight, i think youre sexy and smart and feisty, let me know when you are done rebounding from this guy and i will be waiting. wtf? that came out of nowhere lol i mean im flattered... but who knows? i dont want to go from one thing to another either- and frankly im not capable of doing it right now. but like i keep saying- summer is coming.
ok back to work for me- probably one more hour of work before i take my tired ass to bed. for some reason i woke up at 445 this morning and immediatley started thinking when all i really wanted to do was sleep.
toodles to my faithful- and a special shout-out to my washer/dryer hero! big sloppy kisses to you lol jk
work was pretty lame- for some reason i couldnt get my ass in gear and concentrate- felt so abd about it i brought work home and am taking a break from it right now. I tried to do some at dinner but mr man decide he wanted to have the 'i dont want a girlfriend' chat over text. yeah. text. nice huh? after yesterday he says he wants to hang out after i get moved. whatever. mixed messages suck ass.
in other better news, dinner was delicious... tortellini alla panna from bella nina YUM. :::newsflash::: cream sauces do NOT cure sadness no matter how hard you try.
my house is still kinda messy because i am packing and trying to live, work overtime, commute, raise a kid, and get over a delusional 'relationship' all at the same time and it is jsut draining of my energy. so home is not exactly the refuge i want it to be right now.
:::dont read this cause its sappy- but i really have very mixed feelings about leaving memories of the past 6 months here. every time he rang my doorbell- and especially the first time i dressed up special for him. when he opened that door and i saw the look on his face- i never felt so good. at the same time it sucks right now when so long goes by and he doesnt knock on the door. why cant i just meet him in 5 years when things are different? why the f do i care anyways? we are so not right for each other and i deserve someone who doesnt see my interest as an inconvenience... so wtf is wrong with me that i still care? AAAARGGHHHHH!!:::
big deep breath
OK better. not really but whatever.
im kind of looking forward to a summer distraction. of course there is always k... he says he will come up and see me in bremerton- things are a little weird right now. i was venting to him and out of nowhere he is like- hey i like you, we always get along, we never fight, i think youre sexy and smart and feisty, let me know when you are done rebounding from this guy and i will be waiting. wtf? that came out of nowhere lol i mean im flattered... but who knows? i dont want to go from one thing to another either- and frankly im not capable of doing it right now. but like i keep saying- summer is coming.
ok back to work for me- probably one more hour of work before i take my tired ass to bed. for some reason i woke up at 445 this morning and immediatley started thinking when all i really wanted to do was sleep.
toodles to my faithful- and a special shout-out to my washer/dryer hero! big sloppy kisses to you lol jk
Sunday, June 10, 2007
this weekend
was perfect.
Friday after work kk and i went to dinner at red lobster. yum. hadnt been there since december and after paying the $50 bill for me and a kid i remembered why. but there is something about lobster fondue that makes me want to rip all my clothes off. ok not really :)
Anyhoo, after that we went over to my friends house and waited for her daughter to get home so we could go out. She ios always such a pro at getting ready: curling the hair, all the layers of makeup, she always looks like a million bucks, so it is funny to me to get ready with her. i get done in ten minutes and am like ummmm now what do i do? So i always end up playing with her curling irons and stuff and i feel like a kid watching her mom get ready for a night out. All those sprays and potions- Im like- what does this one do? So we get all beautiful (well more beautifuler than normal) and go out drinkin and dancing and having a gerat time. i LOVE live bands. met up with some people I remembered from back in the day and end up getting home sometime after 3. I found a new drink called a porn star which is raspberry vodka, blue curacao, lime, and some other thingy- anyways it is pretty and delicious... and toxic LOL of course we always drink jagerbombs when we are getting ready and I had had a top shelf long island at red lobster so I had my 9 drinks and that was as drunk as i get without puking. It was perfect.
Saturday morning slept in, got out of bed and dressed around 2 or so because kks bball game was rained out. We went to the mall and Target and it was much more uneventful than my last trip to Target, thats for sure. No old lady wanted to fight me this time. We went to Macys because it is their white sale and i finally figured out exactly the kind of bedroom decor I want. Problem was, it was saturday afternoon and i was the only person NOT signing up for their bridal registry in the whole department. Just made me miss the comfort of a boyfriend. Anyways it made me a little sad which sucked because my day was going outstanding to that point. So we go to the food court for some yummy tacos and sat down at a wobbly table and my pop fell on the floor and i started crying.
WTF???
Yeah I was like ummm thats embarrassing. Had no idea where that came from but I went up and asked the guy and of course he gave a crying mom a free soda so i sat back down and kk starting crying because I was crying and we were jsut a big mess. In the middle of the Tacoma Mall food court. Yeah I am a winner, that is for sure. No wonder I dont have a boyfriend LOL.
OK so then we went home for a second to get stuff together and go to kks baseball award ceremony, which was fun. Hung out with the cool nice parents, which there are like 5, and even made a business contact out of the deal with one of the sales mgrs of one of our suppliers at work.
KK and i went over to my pimpstresses house to pre-funk and get ready for going out alst night, then we took kk to the sitters and slammed a couple at the casino, then picked up lucky and kris and went to the swiss to meet the others. There was a band there called Seven Deep who I love to watch and we danced and drank till the club closed. Then come home, afterparty, and pass out sometime before dawn. Wake up in the morning around 1130 or so, move to the couch, eat yummy snacks, and go to take a nap. But my phone wont stop buzzing so instead I got up and did some packing and took a load out to the new place. The picked up kk and went to Applebee's to beat a riblet craving. more yum. And I have leftovers for tomorrow :)
So yeah it was a way fun weekend. I am more rested than I have been in a while and turns out in my case that absence does not make my heart grow fonder. I am jsut excited for the summer and the opportunities it always brings.
later gaters!
Friday after work kk and i went to dinner at red lobster. yum. hadnt been there since december and after paying the $50 bill for me and a kid i remembered why. but there is something about lobster fondue that makes me want to rip all my clothes off. ok not really :)
Anyhoo, after that we went over to my friends house and waited for her daughter to get home so we could go out. She ios always such a pro at getting ready: curling the hair, all the layers of makeup, she always looks like a million bucks, so it is funny to me to get ready with her. i get done in ten minutes and am like ummmm now what do i do? So i always end up playing with her curling irons and stuff and i feel like a kid watching her mom get ready for a night out. All those sprays and potions- Im like- what does this one do? So we get all beautiful (well more beautifuler than normal) and go out drinkin and dancing and having a gerat time. i LOVE live bands. met up with some people I remembered from back in the day and end up getting home sometime after 3. I found a new drink called a porn star which is raspberry vodka, blue curacao, lime, and some other thingy- anyways it is pretty and delicious... and toxic LOL of course we always drink jagerbombs when we are getting ready and I had had a top shelf long island at red lobster so I had my 9 drinks and that was as drunk as i get without puking. It was perfect.
Saturday morning slept in, got out of bed and dressed around 2 or so because kks bball game was rained out. We went to the mall and Target and it was much more uneventful than my last trip to Target, thats for sure. No old lady wanted to fight me this time. We went to Macys because it is their white sale and i finally figured out exactly the kind of bedroom decor I want. Problem was, it was saturday afternoon and i was the only person NOT signing up for their bridal registry in the whole department. Just made me miss the comfort of a boyfriend. Anyways it made me a little sad which sucked because my day was going outstanding to that point. So we go to the food court for some yummy tacos and sat down at a wobbly table and my pop fell on the floor and i started crying.
WTF???
Yeah I was like ummm thats embarrassing. Had no idea where that came from but I went up and asked the guy and of course he gave a crying mom a free soda so i sat back down and kk starting crying because I was crying and we were jsut a big mess. In the middle of the Tacoma Mall food court. Yeah I am a winner, that is for sure. No wonder I dont have a boyfriend LOL.
OK so then we went home for a second to get stuff together and go to kks baseball award ceremony, which was fun. Hung out with the cool nice parents, which there are like 5, and even made a business contact out of the deal with one of the sales mgrs of one of our suppliers at work.
KK and i went over to my pimpstresses house to pre-funk and get ready for going out alst night, then we took kk to the sitters and slammed a couple at the casino, then picked up lucky and kris and went to the swiss to meet the others. There was a band there called Seven Deep who I love to watch and we danced and drank till the club closed. Then come home, afterparty, and pass out sometime before dawn. Wake up in the morning around 1130 or so, move to the couch, eat yummy snacks, and go to take a nap. But my phone wont stop buzzing so instead I got up and did some packing and took a load out to the new place. The picked up kk and went to Applebee's to beat a riblet craving. more yum. And I have leftovers for tomorrow :)
So yeah it was a way fun weekend. I am more rested than I have been in a while and turns out in my case that absence does not make my heart grow fonder. I am jsut excited for the summer and the opportunities it always brings.
later gaters!
Thursday, June 7, 2007
i dont understand
why you would rather be admired by 100 random people than fully and truly loved by one. Is it jsut that it is easier to not get close? Are you really that afraid of being hurt? makes sense. persnally id rather be hurt than hurt someone.
there is so much i dont understand about you, about life, about the world. i was really looking forward to you teaching me, showing me, and maybe you learning a few things from me too.
feels funny to be the only thing in life you are not open to.
some time i want to jsut talk it out openly and honestly, no distractions. no false fronts. face your fears and inadequacies and i will face mine.
for now i hope you are healthy happy and full in heart.
sorry amanda this isnt all rainbows and puppies lol maybe tomorrow after the long long workweek is over
there is so much i dont understand about you, about life, about the world. i was really looking forward to you teaching me, showing me, and maybe you learning a few things from me too.
feels funny to be the only thing in life you are not open to.
some time i want to jsut talk it out openly and honestly, no distractions. no false fronts. face your fears and inadequacies and i will face mine.
for now i hope you are healthy happy and full in heart.
sorry amanda this isnt all rainbows and puppies lol maybe tomorrow after the long long workweek is over
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